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Progress Report 104 May 15, 2025 3:55pm: so discouraged right now. Only doing the bare minimum  5:20pm: I don’t think I wanna feel anything anymore. There’s wisdom in numbing your emotions. Not joy no hate. Just blank empty. My feelings are a target on my back and I’m gonna work on numbing them. Not suppressing them. 5:39pm: I’m currently realizing people don’t care about me. I’m so numb I’m so dry. I feel so dull and drained. Believe it or not this is progress. All suffering and pain I experience condition me to become stronger and see the world for what it actually is. And not some soft wrapped lie. Not my family, not my team, not anyone, cares about me as I thought. I don’t even know who anyone is anymore. Believe it or not this is indeed progress.  5:42pm: I also have no identity. I don’t want a personality. I don’t want any of that. I just want something I cannot tell. Something too complex for certain ears 5:50pm: Progress can be both good and bad. Regardless I’m sharing...

Progress Report 103 UPDATE: PROGRAM LOG HAS NOW BEEN CHANGED TO PROGRESS REPORT. IT SHALL ONLY HAVE ONE JOURNAL FOR ALL MY JOURNAL TYPES. ALL INCLUDED HERE. I AM HAVING ONLY ONE PUBLIC JOURNAL NOW. May 10, 2025 5:56PM: Report: Just finished laundry 7:14pm: Report: Discovered that my goals can be found when I look into my body. Not when I stay in my head.  Art awakens…. 11:50pm: Report: Art is fully awakening in existence and this universe. Art is being restored. Real true Art. May 11, 2025 9:37am: Just finished a series of workouts May 13, 2025 6:36pm: Art will be imprisoned. And interrogated. (Something happened May 14, 2025 that could have been a foretelling of this. Although I was not taken, I was in that situation. This foretelling was rather eerie considering what happened and almost happened to me) 8:25pm: blood pressure was 160 over 98. Pulse of 88. Having kidney stones and urinating blood at the moment.  9:15pm: My core is being destroyed 9:16pm: I’m literally fighting...

Personal Journal 54 LAST POST May 8, 2025 7:24pm: “Told them b**ches meet me at the top think they got lost” From the song ‘Put It On Da Floor Again’ by Latto. May 9, 2025 2:13pm: Never let them know your next move…. 10:18pm: Well I knew YHWH, Jesus Christ, and Voxsriin personally but not anymore. I’m focused on other things. I no longer share much of my thoughts. But it’s important for you all to know this. I no longer focus on others anymore. And that is important. May 10, 2025 12:09am: Report: I am reading as many religious texts as I can to gather more information and as I stumbled across The Veda I saw all this beautiful imagery and it literally activated something within me. I felt something turn on and heard a frequency as I imagined myself in the afterlives of the beautiful imagery that was shown in the Veda. 7:14pm: Report: Discovered that my goals can be found when I look into my body. Not when I stay in my head.  Art awakens…. 11:50pm: Report: Art is fully awakening in e...

Physical Body Project 12 LAST POST May 10, 2025 6:04pm: Report: I’m feeling pain on my left abdominal side, and on my right brain hemisphere  7:12pm: Report: I felt dizziness overtake me just now 7:17pm: Report: I noticed when my emotions are heightened like laughter and such my dizziness comes back again. I see moving and swirling darkness, and I feel extremely light 7:45pm: Report: Feeling a pain on my right neck side 11:03pm: Report: I can feel Art going into me at this time May 11, 2025 9:37am: Just finished a series of workouts 11:41am: My arm muscles are getting more defined, hard, and strong 12:07pm: I can see veins forming on my hands 12:51pm: Leg muscles are getting stronger. More activated 5:48pm: My vision is going wonky despite me wearing glasses. But then again I’ve been staring at screens and exercising really hard so that could be why May 13, 2025 10:20am: Finished my workout

Art Journal 6 LAST POST May 4, 2025 6:27am: Going to work on Project 19 for the day….. 6:31am: Just finished work on Project 19 for the day. I also finished with the chapter two presentation of my notes. 4:01pm: I feel as though I shall post two albums per year. I will work on album three and four in the year of 2026. This is because I want one album to be for gospel, and the other one to be more about me and my self expression l. I will see how this goes. But that is a plan. May 5, 2025 5:44am: Will begin work on Project 19’s movie script soon. 5:50am: Just finished work on Project 18 for the day. 8:02am: Going to work on my presentation. I am on chapter three. Working on that now…. 8:20am: I just finished my presentation. May 6, 2025 6:24am: Writing on Project 19’s movie script for the day….. 6:29am: I have just finished work on Project 19 for the day. After this, I shall be working on Project 19 and reading a chapter of the Bible every other day now. This is to help not get overwhel...

Religious Texts 11 LAST POST UPDATE: THE HOLY CEPHER BIBLE NOTES JOURNAL SHALL NOW BE UPGRADED AND EVOLVED TO EINAI SASA’S RELIGIOUS TEXTS’ JOURNAL. AS MORE THAN ONE SCRIPTURES SHALL BE INCLUDED FROM NOW ON. INSTEAD OF JUST REPORTING, I MAY GO AHEAD AND ASK RHETORICAL QUESTIONS AS WELL  May 9, 2025 5:25am: In Genesis Chapter 50 Joseph talked about how YHWH will lead people to the promised land. He was fortelling the famous events of the Exodus. May 11, 2025 12:10am: Reading the Bible. Picking up right where I left off….. 12:15am: Report: Task completed. I stopped on beginning of Exodus Chapter 2 Verse 1. Einai Sasa Jesse Nganga Njoki began to read the Veda. The Hindu Text…. 12:17am: Report: Starting the Veda now…. 12:18am: I am starting on the Mandala 1, reading Sūkta 1. Beginning now. 12:21am: Progress was halted due to the inconvenience of the Veda not being in English. Let me attempt to correct this. If I’m unable to correct this before I get tired I shall try again when the sun...

Dream Journal 7 LAST POST May 11, 2025 8:19am: Dreamed of how we were going to ride Amtrak Surfliner and there were fights. And I remember the setting was different and then it changed to a train station instantly. Think it was a school first 6:01am: Just woke up. Forgot most of what I dreamed

Food Journal 25 LAST POST  May 6, 2025 6:37pm:  Eating some quesadillas now…. 6:59pm: Oh yes I also drank two nutritional shakes. 11:46pm: Eating a few more quesadillas. May 7, 2025 6:08am Going to drink some apple cider vinegar and some lemon juice added into it. This shall be my breakfast, 3:10pm: I’m hungry. But oh I remember. I didn’t eat today. Just had the apple cider vinegar. I’ll eat a bunch tonight May 8, 2025 9:20pm: Just ate three quesadillas and four servings of my nutritional shakes. 5:31pm: Eating salad right now. Caesar Salad. May 9, 2025 9:41am: Eating a bowl of cheddar cheese, protein bar, and two nutritional shakes May 11, 2025 2:00PM: Having my favorite salad chicken guacamole salad by Ready Pac Foods Bistro 

Shelter Journal 3 LAST POST April 16th, 2025 Wednesday….. 5:07PM: I am super thankful for this Emergency Housing that I live in. I am not only thankful for this. But for all that I have. I lack nothing that I truly need and I thank Tov my Yahuah.  As well as those responsible. Thanks. April 23rd, 2025 Wednesday  7:47PM: They are cleaning up the place finally. All our rooms at this transitional housing. And the managers are so professional. I want to be that professional. They know how to separate their emotion from their job. If I am going to be successful on my work, then I have to do the same. I learned something today. April 24th, 2025 1:46AM: Someone wants me to conspire against someone else to get them kicked out of the transitional housing. I do not take sides in drama. It was one of the clients. I shall not take his side. Do not take my support and generosity for blindness and weakness. April 25th, 2025  4:43PM: Just got done packing. My 90 days at this shelte...

Off-Topic Journal 3 LAST POST April 14th, 2025 Monday…. 10:14AM: There was a minor earthquake just now. I love them. I enjoy them. 😊 10:53AM: I just purchased Leolah Brown’s book that covers details about Whitney Houston’s and more of her family’s deaths. I am trying to read that. I need to know. 12:20PM: I am rather hurt and bothered by this client saying that ‘he knows I do not like them’. He was so rude. And I want vengeance. He is a jerk.  April 15th, 2025 Tuesday… 10:03AM: I want to get a word search book. I am now becoming more into those. 4:51PM: I am going to skip showering for the day and brushing my teeth. April 16th, 2025 Wednesday…. 4:47AM: I am feeling like taking the train tomorrow by myself…. 9:09AM: One  of the toxic people who used to be in my life came to the peer center to me and I feel so triggered. I feel like acting petty. They hurt me so bad. I feel lied to with that supposed and alleged “friendship”. April 18th, 2025 Friday….. 2:07PM: I just finis...

Good Things Journal 4 LAST POST   April 30, 2025 12:54pm: It feels good that after my time here at the peer center is done I will be going back to my home instead of a shelter with strangers I do not know. My belongings are finally safe. That feels good.  4:38pm: I was able to get a ride back after they tried to send me to my old shelter address. It was a process, but I am now back on track. This is included in the Good Things Journal because I am happy. This is proof that I cannot freak out over the slightest inconvenience. 6:13pm: My relative let me borrow their house key because I do not have my own. They are letting me borrow it for the next few days until I get my own. Thank you relative.  May 1, 2025 8:26am: I am going to LA Union station for the first time. I cannot wait to see the Amtrak trains…. 9:14am: While on my train I saw a graffiti art saying, “Keep Your Hopes Up”. If the artist is reading this, you know who you are, thank you. I shall keep my hopes up. May...

Physical Body Project 11 May 6, 2025 3:53pm: I feel my right eye acting some type of way. Perhaps it’s still adjusting to the glasses. Hm. 10:23pm: I’m having a headache on the right side of my brain hemisphere. Is that technically a migraine? I’m not too sure. 10:51pm: My right eye is seriously having some issues. Sigh. May 7, 2025 6:44am: Every time that I initially wake up, I always seem to suffer from deep severe grogginess issues. I can’t sleep right now because I’ll be late for my ride. I gotta stay awake… 8:17am: I’m going through tooth aches…. Uh. My upper teeth. The upper front teeth. 8:27am: Working out now…. 8:35am: Just got done with my workouts. 2:46pm: My cheekbones look more defined and I see my facial muscles forming, mostly on the left side of my face. 5:46pm: I’m felling very sore. From my workouts. Particularly my legs. And my low back as well. I can feel my age. And I’m only about to be 23 years old. 7:41pm: I just activated a muscle in my right arm. And it hurts. M...

Dream Journal 6 May 3, 2025 1:40am: Good night. I love where I am in my life. And this is only the beginning. 😊 5:19am: I have woken up and I think I dream of three things, my train trip, movie Winged (2022) and mystery of who got offed and where the culprit  was. 7:59am: I was at this beautiful desert with these wonderful free-spirited people. The desert ended up turning into a prison. They were also launching rockets. It I do not know where they were launching it too. 10:34am: Had another dream about school and prisoners. There was this person I liked and he ended up disappearing. And then his clone cam to the scene and started being rude to me. We were in this old fashioned passenger plane. You know, the ones with propellers. 2:13pm: Oh yeah and I had a dream I was passing away. They were planning my funeral. And in that dream, it caused me to almost leave my body in real life. 2:35pm: Oh yeah and it was through this dream that I realized that I really do fear the concept ...

Program Log 102 May 7, 2025 6:09am: I’ll try to remember taking out the trash, my goal is to leave this house by around 7:35am to 7:37am.  7:46am: Was able to take the trash out. On my way to the peer center now. 1:19pm: I wanna go boxing and I wanna start boxing. I like watching fight videos in my free time after all. 2:47pm: Going home now. Will get my meds tomorrow most likely in the morning and then I’ve got an important phone call to do. 3:34pm: Got home. 3:54pm: Smile at the face of Death. It is okay. Although it’s normal, Death should not be feared. 5:38pm: Unscripted inaction. 6:19pm: I’m a businessman.  7:56pm: I’m going on a journey currently where I experience life through other entities’ eyes. Nonphysical. I’m talking about what people believe to be spirits and such. But they are all a part of my mental realm. The first on the list, I shall say. But he’s the Green One. He’s also referred to as a Knight by some. It’s time for me to do this. Until he can fully be fre...