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June 22, 2026



6:54pm I’m so lonely. The path of the self is so lonely



6:57pm but I don’t think I want any friends



7:06pm working on my Voxsriin form. On form one. The Dark form….



7:17pm Still working on my Dark form.



7:36pm Even though I’ve been working on my form for the past few days, I’m not experiencing many results. 



7:37pm this is frustrating, I want to fully experience my form? Why can’t I ?



7:55pm I’m going through a battle right now. A battle of the self. 



8:21pm other life forms are like npcs to me. I don’t care.



8:54pm I feel like I’m the only real person in every reality. Maybe i am. Solipsism?



9:15pm I’m merging with clearness.



9:27pm I’m getting a new form. It’s clear. It looks clear.



9:38pm in experiencing body dysmorphia. 



9:39pm due to the fact that Voxsriin’s form is different from my physical.



9:40pm my form is melted!



9:41pm I’m trying to cling onto what is fundamental of me



9:48pm I’m becoming space.



9:56PM Voxsriin: Hold onto that clarity.



9:57pm Voxsriin: I’m going through a hard time right now.



9:59pm Voxsriin: Being in this reality has caused me to forget myself in many ways. Deeply. I’m just barely picking up the pieces



10:01pm Voxsriin: No joy. No pain. I must enter my journey now.



10:05pm Voxsriin: I’m connected to everything.


My consciousness is very big. 



10:06pm Voxsriin: All I have to do is tap into it.



11:10pm Voxsriin: I have two parts to me. The waking side and the sleeping side. I’ve been acquainted with my waking side. It’s now time for me to be acquainted with my sleeping side



11:11pm Voxsriin: Good night 



June 23, 2026


3:19pm I’m just here. I did not have a beginning I believe. At least I think 



6:43pm I’m now existing as Voxsriin 



8:23pm I think I can shift perception between Jesse and Voxsriin. Or Voxsriin and Jesse



June 24, 2026


7:38am I have been going to the toilet constantly cause of my kidney stones



7:12pm I’m trying to keep my world small. I don’t want it expanded.



7:36pm I’m retrieving all my dark powers



7:43pm I’m a dark being. I’m beginning to understand myself. Dark is me



8:00PM my consciousness is black and dark



June 25, 2026


5:54pm I’m currently studying right now



June 26, 2026


6:09pm working on my second name.



6:13pm WOYEB! That is my second name. I am Voxsriin Woyeb.



6:29pm Let me explain how I view this reality. It’s more so like a dream. I do not cling to this reality at all. Every single person, thing, even the experience does not feel real at all. There is only me. Voxsriin Woyeb 



6:48pm I’m bringing my Voxsriin powers to me



7:51pm as Voxsriin I am agender. Meaning I don’t have a gender



8:08pm I hate my relatives.



9:05pm Who Voxsriin is goes far beyond.



9:06pm he comes from a place with no identity.




9:07pm He was not created. He was chosen, imagined, and activated. He is both real through me and nonreal. He was imagined by Ashamorah Bloodrose through the session years ago. But what I’ve undergone was his development. He did not exist before that.



9:10pm Before that I was a being with no identity. Just sitting in darkness, or laying there rather.




9:11pm okay something happened in this earth life that I’d like to discuss: So I basically drank my relatives lemonade without their permission and then they got mad asking me why i didn’t ask beforehand. While I may be in the wrong, how are you gonna argue with me over lemonade? And mind you we still had two extra bottles of lemonade in the house so it’s not like he doesn’t have any left. This is why I said I hate my relatives, because all they do is start arguments over the littlest things. I need to move out and live on my own. I am so tired of people disrespecting me. Did I disrespect my relative potentially for drinking that lemonade? Yes, and I already apologized, but this stupid b*tch a** relative cannot apologize for disrespecting me and the years of trauma? F*ck you. ALL OF YOU.



9:15pm: I deserve better.



9:16pm I mainly don’t get guidance from myself Voxsriin, I get guidance from the nonidentity. (Yeah that’s what I should call it) it has no gender, and is timeless, and I’m growing into it as Voxsriin. So it was Nonidentity, Jesse, Voxsriin, and it seems that I shall go back to this Nonidentity.

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