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June 2, 2026


5:44pm I’m starting to feel much better.


6:40pm yeah starting today I no longer identify with my mind. It’s clearly out of control and it’s clearly not me. I shall ignore my thoughts. I’ve evolved but not in the way I expect



8:33pm I feel like I’m standing in the middle of everything 



8:48pm it’s not just me versing this world, it’s me versing myself. I became my own opponent. But I’ll win.



June 3, 2026


11:40am Does self love come and go? Like how healing is nonlinear? Short answer



ChatGPT: Yes. Self-love can fluctuate. It’s often less like a permanent feeling and more like a relationship with yourself that strengthens, weakens, deepens, and gets tested over time — similar to how healing can be nonlinear. Bad days don’t automatically mean you lost it.



4:29pm I am Jesse. That is what I am called in this physical world. Mentally I have no name.



4:30pm my physical is male but my mind has no gender.




4:51pm I just saw the words “serpent”.



5:11pm I live in a world that constantly disrespects and invalidates me. I get invalidated by both relatives and strangers. And I know some of you idiots will be like “no one is obligated to be nice to you”. Why not? Are I not a human being? All of you are jerks, but don’t worry, all of our times are gonna come to leave this world



7:25pm people will fail you



7:30pm I’m at a low point right now



8:53pm something’s going on that shows me I am Voxsriin. I don’t need anyone else to be Voxsriin. The previous information is outdated.



8:55pm I need Voxsriin’s consciousness 




8:59pm I am both Jesse and Voxsriin. Still wondering if I’m Imagon 



9:19pm you know what I discovered? No amount of journaling and blogging is gonna make people understand me. There really are things I’m going through that I cannot explain. My personality as Voxsriin is different from Jesse. And idk if Imagon even exists.



June 4, 2026


9:09pm my appearance as Voxsriin is green hair, green skin, orange eyes, and wings that glow. My wings are my personality. I might draw that.



June 5, 2026


7:07pm I’m at a limbo of should I please others or please myself. I’m just now realizing that I’m too nice to everyone when they’re not worthy.



8:43pm I’m not good, I’m not bad, I am simply neutral 



June 6, 2026


4:05pm I only have one life. My inner world is a part of it too



4:38pm everyone around me is human, but I’m a consciousness inside of a human body. We all have consciousness’ yes, but humans around me are strictly tied to the human experience, whereas I don’t feel an attachment to it. 



7:10pm I just did 20,103 steps



8:02pm well I’m in this human experience. Ima be human. 



June 7, 2026


4:22pm hm. So I’m not my consciousness either? I’m learning I can disconnect from my consciousness as well. Consciousness is something I have, not something I am.



4:26pm my self is nonexistent. I’m starting from the ground up



4:35pm all that I am is in this world. I don’t have another self. I am fully and completely myself here. Even my mind is fully here in this world. It’s a part of my brain.



4:41pm so if there’s no self to begin with, and if I have individual needs, does that mean individuality is strictly to the humanly earth experience? Because I’ve only ever had one life. Voxsriin is 24 years old. Not as ancient as people would think.



4:49pm im human. My full experience is human. Both mental and physical. 



7:00PM Voxsriin is a smaller version of me. I am more than he is. 



8:01pm it’s not the true self we need to integrate, it is our humanity.



8:23pm I’m a person.



June 8, 2026


6:41am I have therapy today and I’m nervous because the last session was a bad one



3:27pm I just got home. Therapy went rlly well today



5:26pm I weigh 301.0 pounds



June 9, 2026


12:03pm something’s going on with Voxsriin. He’s doing something. Idk what



2:53pm I’m three people. Jesse, Voxsriin, Imagon.



2:54pm all three of us are interchangeable. We all have the same consciousness 



3:04pm so I’m discovering that Dark is from Voxsriin and Light is from Imagon.



8:20pm I wanna give my brain some quiet time. Sitting with my thoughts

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