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April 1, 2026


7:35am happy April first 2026!!



April 2, 2026


6:24pm I can feel a calling to my inner self.



6:50pm I am Observo. Today is my birthday.



6:53pm as Observo I have no personality. I have attributes. Well some. 




7:58pm Voxsriin is trying to pull me to him. I can feel the strength.



8:10pm I’m learning so many things about myself.




8:12pm like how I can choose whatever identity I want feelings-wise



April 3, 2026


8:45pm I am Jesse. The connection between me and Voxsriin is dead. 



9:20pm I am who I am as Jesse and I fully embrace myself as Jesse. Voxsriin was never me.



April 4, 2026


6:26pm my spirit form is broken and damaged. I put too much strain on myself. The only form I have is my physical body. I am a physical being. Not spiritual. I am still going to do spiritual work, but through the physical. It seems as though I don’t have a spirit. I haven’t even touched my soul aspect Jesse.




6:55pm dealing with uncomfortable emotions right now.



6:57pm feeling so uncomfortable and yet so connected to myself.



7:11pm life is a scam.



8:31pm my energy is being held. By myself.




April 5, 2026


6:25pm there’s a storm going on inside of me. ⛈️ 



April 6, 2026


10:45am: all I know is I exist in the present moment. Not in the past, and not in the future.



3:00PM I’ve come so far today through my therapy session.



April 7, 2026


7:53pm I have no form other than this physical body. I don’t have a form otherwise. I’m formless. I am the Mind. I am all the Mind.



April 8, 2026


7:22pm I’m genderless. I’m formless. Am I mindless? Idk.



8:01pm I cannot be touched. I cannot even touch myself. I think I’m beginning to understand what the self truly is.



8:18pm I’m being filled with so much wisdom. I’m not meant to change.



8:19pm I’m meant to just experience life as a human. My self is sacred. So sacred to the point where I cannot touch it nor tamper with it.




8:22pm it’s okay to be aware of your self, but not tampering with its attributes.



8:34pm the self is what develops overtime. It’s not a one and done situation.



April 9, 2026



3:56PM I’m in a bad mood right now. Just lots going on.



3:59pm I’m crying right now.



5:01pm I’m in my mental realm. But things are a little blurry to see.



6:06pm I can feel my life before me. I feel secure content and well.



9:30pm good night. Today was a good day.



April 11, 2026


12:41pm I deleted DoorDash from my phone to help with weight loss .



12:44pm I’m versing myself on this.



3:54pm the self is the mind. The mind is the self.



4:42pm April 11th, 2026, the day I awoke myself as a Light.



5:05pm I introduced myself to the Council of Light.



7:41pm my dreams have been very vivid these past few days



7:43pm although I can’t remember much.



7:51pm I don’t feel human. I want to feel human. 



9:02pm consciousness is fundamental. Not energy, not anything else. Just consciousness 



April 12, 2026


4:01pm I’m having trouble coming to terms with multiverses etc. but I’m currently learning about them right now.



April 13, 2026


4:45pm the self cannot be touched, only experienced.



April 14, 2026


1:46pm I feel so weird right now.



3:38pm I am the bright Purple Light. 



4:51pm I’m getting memories of my dreams. I’ve noticed this. Little by little I see faint flashes.



4:54pm I’m working on my purple light.



4:55pm I’m glowing bright purple



5:03pm I forgot to mention that I saw a shadow today while I was working on myself.



5:06pm I am the purple star. Voxsriin is the green star. And yes, he’s a part of me.

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