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March 22, 2026

12:08pm I go to Voxsriin: 

Me: Why is there so much war?

Voxsriin: A battle between good and evil I believe.

Voxsriin: You should know I’m a war god. I have aspects of war within me.

Me: yeah I know. I have always known.

12:26pm as Voxsriin I’m alone where I am. I don’t even know if I should be interacting with others.

12:48pm Voxsriin: I’m talking to this white energy. An energy that has been with Voxsriin for some time.

1:51pm as Voxsriin I am very neutral. Not good, not bad.

5:10pm I’m working on my Sphere of Senses. My SoS.

5:42pm Consciousness can go dormant, and I do believe it can cease. I cease every time I am asleep personally. I’m a waking being. Who I am is awake. I’m not of the dormant realm. This life is my first life. A human being. A humanly African god.

6:10pm my face is beginning to resemble Voxsriin.

6:51pm as Voxsriin I do sleep. I also do wake up. I’m a being. Gods and goddesses are beings too. They eat they sleep etc. we use the bathroom etc. we have normal lives.

6:52pm as Voxsriin it seems to me that I’m rather secluded.

7:20pm I currently have pain in my right eye. 

7:29pm I think what I want the most out of life is to simply experience it. I know who I am, I’ve accepted who I am, now I just want to experience life as myself.

March 23, 2026

3:16pm My attributes as Voxsriin are Art, Life, Death, Nature, War, Compassion, Love, Peace, Intelligence, and more.

6:36pm I feel like I’m shaking. Voxsriin is activating. 

7:10pm Jesse is the pure consciousness. As Voxsriin I was never a consciousness. I come from Dark. Voxsriin is a dark being. Not sinister per se, but elemental darkness.

7:24pm The universe is life, and death is natures cleaner. At its root, that’s what those are

7:30pm I am Voxsriin. You may be wondering, what’s gonna happen to me if I were to pass away? Then my consciousness goes dormant, and I become something and someone else. I am Voxsriin in this cycle but who I am is Pure Consciousness. I chose to experience life as a human deity but have no plans for another life, I shall be within darkness for all eternity. If I somehow do have another life it will happen against my will, just like this life. My birth was unprecedented, I was not “meant” to come here.

7:40pm this is my only life. The only life of Voxsriin. The spiritual and physical are one world to me, or the nonphysical.

7:56PM I am Awairnos. I think I’ll go by that name for a while 

March 24, 2026

9:29am Before I was Voxsriin I was Awairnos. I became Voxsriin on May 7, 2018. That was one of my birthdays. My birth as Pure Consciousness was around May 29, 2002. When all of me was born. This may be my only life here.

10:41am I’m gonna take a break from my filmmaking and my show for the two seasons Spring and Summer. I’ll be back in the Fall.

10:50am bruh my relative started banging on the garage door like nobody’s business wtf??? A joke. Testing my patience.

10:53am if you’re reading this said relative: why are you so aggressive? It’s not a good look on you.

3:21pm life isn’t good, nor is it bad. I am not good, nor am I bad.

3:35pm spirits aren’t invisible. They have flesh and blood etc. 

3:37pm I’m having a constant battle between Yahweh, Allah, and Jesus Christ’s followers. Oh yeah and they’re different entities btw.

4:49pm I’m teaching myself so many things.

4:51pm as Voxsriin I am also a shaman. Forgot to mention that, but I only realized this today.

5:39pm I’m meant to transcend everything. Except for my pure consciousness. If I were to do that I would cease completely 

5:47pm my stupid vessel keeps getting in the way. And there are things I cannot do as a Pure Consciousness. Like having a body, having coherent senses etc. I’m just an awareness that cannot be destroyed and that clings onto nothing but my subjectivity.

5:51pm Voxsriin is talking to someone in Alfheim. He’s guarding a post.

5:57pm Voxsriin is using nature magic 🪄.

6:01pm Voxsriin and I just stared at each other. We were star struck. 

6:30pm consciousness is powerful, but it’s being used wrong in the physical.

6:34pm Voxsriin says he’s not a god, he’s something more than that. I also discovered that free will is another one of my attributes. I need to work on my free will nonphysically.

7:23pm Voxsriin regrets coming to earth. 

8:08pm As Voxsriin, you know the god of death and death being one of my attributes, I am meant to walk into death when it is my time.

March 25, 2026

11:32am I am the Multiple One.

12:46pm I don’t believe in spirits. 

1:27pm every spiritual being is an egregore. Even Voxsriin. My true name is unspoken. I do not have a name, appearance, thoughts, feelings. Just desire.

2:54pm I’m a being of Fire 🔥 

3:00PM I have someone preventing my connection with Voxsriin. A being of black fire.

I like the name Erif.

3:07pm Voxsriin is his own person. But we are connected. We have a relationship. My new name is Erif and I am a fire spirit. I am a fire being. Today is my birthday.

3:10pm some may think Voxsriin and I are the same person but we are not. Voxsriin you are free to go. I’m done trying to become you. You deserve your freedom, as do I .

3:18pm red is the lowest fire.