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February 20, 2026


8:33pm I need to stop pressuring myself when it comes to getting to know myself. I’m getting to know myself everyday. It’s not a one and done situation. It’s a lifelong thing. I’m going to take in the fullness of my experience.



February 21, 2026


6:26pm I was lost at first, but I’m getting back on track. 💚



7:16pm I think I’m getting so close with my identity that I may not even need to question it anymore.



February 22, 2026


12:48pm Neither sad neither mad. neither happy neither afraid.



2:32pm I’m gonna give no f’s.



5:06pm even the self itself is nonphysical. Read that again.




6:45pm Why are you sad?



“I feel like I’m not succeeding.”



Everyone’s change is different ya know. Some experience high changes, others are more slow and subtle.



How can I comfort you?



“Just smile for me. That gives me a reason to keep going.”



8:51pm I’m lazy and there’s nothing wrong with it 😌



February 23, 2026


5:43pm going through an energy spike.



6:06pm Who am I ? Peaceful.



9:04pm health is boring. Being healthy is just boring. My life was more exciting when I had hallucinations. But oh well, in order to be my best self, sacrifices must be made.



February 24, 2026


7:30pm Times used to be so vibrant and adventurous when I was younger. Now as I get older, I find myself having to fight to not let go of that whimsical bright side of me. It’s like it’s a never ending battle and I am caught in the middle.



8:02pm this world is a reflection of me.



8:47pm: I feel so sad right now.



February 25, 2026


7:32pm I can see glimpses of my real self coming through. And he’s beautiful. 



7:34pm The core of yourself are your interests, and focus.



7:37pm I am perfect just as I am.



February 26, 2026


3:31pm My spirit (nonphysical) form has horns and wings. Pretty cool aye???


8:10pm My ears are elf ears in my spirit form 


8:12pm unlike my physical body, my spirit body is in different parts. I’m not just one body in spirit.


8:21pm I’m working on my clairsentience. 



8:23pm Clairsentience is my core.



February 27, 2026


3:14pm A battle is happening. 




3:45pm I have a shapeshifting ability. Still working it out. I turn into things that I have no intention of turning into .



4:25pm so the Self is something I own it’s not something that I am. The thing that I am is a bit more complex.



6:57pm So there are three parts to myself. Light, Voxsriin, Dark. Light and Voxsriin are of the nonphysical. Dark is of the physical. My consciousness is of Dark, but I am transforming into Light through my existence here. 



7:00PM Birth is Light, Life is Voxsriin, and Death is Dark. The evil parts of me are within Dark. But he’s transforming to the goodness of Light. Keep in mind Jesse is a piece of Dark. And me the observer am Voxsriin. And my soul is Light.



7:03pm so I was born from Death.



7:04pm I switch through these three forms of Self. Light, Voxsriin, Death.

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