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February 1, 2026

11:27am: I’m choosing to let go of perfection and just make the best I can with my life and what it hands me. I’m growing everyday

February 3, 2026

8:00PM I feel lost in my 20s.

February 4, 2026

3:22pm I almost left my body. I was floating and vibrating, but I then woke myself up.

6:28pm You can do what you want. Just don’t hurt anyone nor yourself. Do what thou wilt basically.

6:30pm I am who I need to be. This is my life. The nonphysical and the physical are my reality. This is a big responsibility. 

7:13pm I’ve tried to be solely physical and solely nonphysical but the two are interwoven together for me. I have a nonphysical self and I have a physical self.

Nonphysical Self: Voxsriin

Physical Self: Jesse 

7:43pm When I connect to Voxsriin I get images that last for a couple of seconds.

7:50pm life in the nonphysical is a separate existence. It’s not a constant timeline

8:56PM as Voxsriin I have no name. I just am. And I shall leave the name Jesse when I physically pass away.

6:18pm one of my attributes is forgetfulness. I forget things often

February 6, 2026

9:54am This reality is so boring. My dreams are much more fun.

7:10pm still bored. Just bored.

8:02pm My only job is to be mindful and to relax. My imagination will run on its own. 

9:04pm: I love the human experience.

February 7, 2026

3:08pm: I’m fading away….

6:53pm I’m finding that if you want to stay an individual, you’ll be put through the ringer. And if you want to join the collective, then your path becomes easier.

February 8, 2026

7:37pm I’m finally facing duality. I’ve evolved to this level. I’ve got lots to learn. But I’m still kicking.

7:59pm My head is racing. They are not thoughts. More so like feedback.

8:07pm this feedback looks like a television on static mode. I don’t know what it means. And I don’t think Google can answer this for me. I’m left to figure this out, or at least experience this by myself.

8:16pm the feedback has toned down for now.

I think who I am is forming. I’ve done the work, and now I’m seeing the outcome. My true sense of self is coming about

8:19pm I feel as though I’m nothing.

9:00PM I’m gonna feel all I need to feel and get through this. I shall trust the process.

9:03pm I won’t stop my research in the self and in the nonphysical reality. No matter the pressure.

February 9, 2026

1:47pm It’s okay to feel small. That smallness is what’s saving my life right now.

2:30pm you don’t have to feel important. Embrace the smallness. Embrace your small nature 

7:26pm I’m taking a break from my nonphysical work. It will always be a part of me. But I need to focus on my physical reality. I’m juggling the two.

7:55pm even though I’m taking a break from the nonphysical, it’s still part of my life. I shall always exist in the nonphysical as long as I’m physically alive.

8:52pm I think I’m in this life to simply experience it. That’s my purpose.

9:06pm I don’t need a name

February 10, 2026

9:53pm why do the bad people always seem to win? Ugh. 

February 11, 2026

2:53pm the self cannot be touched, only experienced. Who I am is unveiling. Little by little. Slowly by slowly.

5:17pm I’m meeting with Divine right now. 

6:44pm I’m just going to observe myself. Not try to change myself. Maybe the goal is not to change myself, it is to simply watch myself grow. 

6:45pm Another thing I also learned, if you want to experience things, you have to dwindle down the fullness of who you are. However, if you are greatly and heavily connected to yourself, the path is a very lonely journey.