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September 27, 2025


Jesus? I accept all that you are. I fear you out of love and respect. I give you all that I am. My soul, my spirit, my flesh and body. My dreams, my worries, all my powers seen and unseen, known and unknown. I want you here. I need to be with you. There is a fire and intense heat igniting within me for you. I love you Jesus. Stay the same, for you are the past, you are the present, and you are the future. 



Jesus is my beautiful secret. 



I love my family. 



A great read….


https://www.harvestprayer.com/gazing-at-god/



I feel like giving up. I feel like people are not compassionate nowadays. It feels like nobody is saved by Jesus and they want to do whatever they are going to do. I will not be threatened into submission. You all got the wrong person to bully.



Did you know that men are enslaved by women? Divine Masculinity is dying. Even men do not know who they are anymore. I will live life my way. I’m done with sin. It’s getting me angry at this point. God listens, but does He care? That is the real question. I’m GETTING BULLIED! HELLO!? The devil is after me but he shall not win. I hate the one who did this to me. And I hope God sends her to hell. It’s like women are turning evil today and men are being subservient to them. I do not like this. It is Adam and Eve all over again. Ugh. Gosh. What’s even worse is I’m one of those men. But I’m changing. 



6:47pm that Ashamorah Bloodrose witch is calling me into her stupid cult again. I really hate her. I suppose taking hatred to the grave is okay. Right?



6:50pm I feel so hurt. I do not like what is happening to me and I call for judgement and justice upon my own blood. No one else, but me. God will take her out. Oh you betchya 



The matrix does not exist. Although Hell does exist. I’m living Hell right now. Everything is a spam and a fraud. I was witched, and that is my reality. I hate what I did to myself. Why can’t I just heal in peace?



6:54pm I was meant to be tortured. I have a strong dislike for women. Disgusting. My fame will be messy. That’s my fame, because that is me. The devil, who I shall not name because I will be attacked for, is trying to make me follow this Bloodrose witch. She is disgusting. I hate her. God? I really do hate her. I’m not sure of the full capacity of what I did to you God? But I’m sorry. I’ll never take You for a fool. I will never have a crush on You. I was wrong. But you know what? I AM YOUR CREATION! And there is nothing that can change this fact. So either take my life, or at least be nice to me. You do not know how many people are so evil to me now. I just wanted to love and be with You. But oh, I get that is wrong. I have to fear You instead. I do not know if you are love. But You are God and I honor You. Out of fear. You’ve judged me already. Stop and let me heal! My punishment is indeed greater than I can bear. I guess my life is meant to be harsh. I didn’t even do anything. I never wanted to come here on earth, You did.



7:28pm I want to call God the Most High. The Highest One.



September 28, 2025


People do not like me talking to myself even when they do it too. You will not lead me astray. Grow up and look the other way if I bother you so much.



A great read on Jesus


https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jesus



I consider Him to be God Himself. 



I feel as though love does not exist. And if it does somehow, I know it is Jesus. He is not just love though. He is everything. He is The Judge. The one and only Judge.



10:07am I will never be subservient to her. To anyone who is not Jesus Himself actually. Ok? Ok.



1:06pm all this drama in my life is not necessary. I’m speaking for myself. There is no need for drama or for me to hate others. I mean it when I say I would like to be positive.

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