Personal Journal 53

Personal Journal 53

May 6, 2025

11:47am: I remember going through what I call the Emptiness. Where I would feel all the people around me in my mental world and then they would just vanish, leaving me all alone. 11:50am: I am learning a lot, but one thing I would want to learn is to live life more independently. To enjoy my experiences more and be more in the moment. Only documenting what is necessary.

From Private Diary…..

2:37pm: “Because believe it or not, people get mad at me for helping them. Or put off at the very least. Then when I go ahead and mind my own business they will call me heartless. Please pick one…. I shall no longer help people unless two things, it is either my job to or unless they prove themselves worthy of my help. I will not meddle into other people’s business anymore. It is not my concern. Both relatives and strangers alike. It is not my responsibility.”

2:39pm: “It doesn’t feel good in the end does it? Getting what you want.” 

~Vinh from Life is Strange Double Exposure…..

3:46pm: “Does the past version of you ever feel like—I don’t know, an alien?….

Like, the shit that person cared about is so worthless you can’t even remember being them?…..”

~ Vinh from the Life is Strange Double Exposure gameplay.

He’s back at it again with the great quotes. It’s exactly how I feel. I’ve ditched my past self. He is absolutely worthless to me. But his dreams are still and shall always be of value to me. His, Jesse’s, dreams are the only thing of him that still exist today. Otherwise, the person and the force and the mind inside of this body are a completely different person entirely. Now you can see why I cannot be my true self in front of people who only know me from the past. Hence, my relatives, but now you can see why I like talking to strangers who do not know me. Are interaction is far less strained and filtered.

I am Forming a New Power: Einai Sasa Jesse Nganga Njoki’s New Ability and Power……

4:18pm: I am forming a new power as we speak. It’s still too early to determine what it’s called. But I got it from an inspiration. Sometimes things feel as though they are just meant to happen. Whether or not it is truly meant to happen is a different story. But I just can’t shake that feeling. I was meant to find this game, and it’s helping me with my next movie, Project 20, and it’s helping my own new powers develop. What a journey….

4:59pm: I can feel a physical reaction to people slamming things in this world. Be it a door or something else. My abilities are coming back. Not just one is developing, but many. That is all I will share. I am on a learning journey. I see Clarity. That is my power. I have already said too much.

5:12pm: I just went through such an epic brief battle with Jesse. We were spiraling upwards grabbing onto each other after he tried to overwhelm me with his face. I absorbed it all and we grabbed each other.

6:01pm: What I am going through is really complex. Let me explain. I have the infinite power to be anything. I see infinite paths before me. What these paths are to my understanding are infinite potentials. And I have the power to choose which version of me I can be. The name Version is making a comeback. But it shall be one of my secret names. I will not make it official.

6:57pm: I can see my different versions coming through. I will not describe their appearance.

Einai Sasa Jesse Nganga Njoki Imprisoned within His Emotions May 6, 2025…..

7:12pm: Me to My Opposer: “You keep me imprisoned. You keep me chained. Deep within my emotions. And you still have me imprisoned. You will not tell me how to act. I see you. You cannot hide from me the way you hide within others. And use them against me. Whatever you are. I will not be overcome by you..”

7:30pm: Me: “I’ve been living in my fears….”

7:43pm: I was not really in creation. I am even still just spectating it. I was an awareness when I was born. That was my first phase. I do not know what my next phase is. I do remember Awairnos. He was apart of the Imagon Cluster. I remember him. But my very beginning was awareness, which goes far beyond sight. I suppose that was my next stage, sight.

7:58pm: That’s what’s happening. I’m being introduced to the concept of power and my own power…

From Private Diary….

May 7, 2025

10:28am: Jesse feels like oil.

11:19am: Just took a nice walk. 😊

11:30am: I think I’ll just be fighting the air when I’m mad. I’ll try this method tonight. 

5:37pm: It’s about unscripted non-action. Unscripted inaction.

6:05pm: Voxsriin is beating me up right now. Lmao. I can take his attacks. He is causing gravity to built up and constrict me to where I cannot breathe independently. Oh well ya little shit. I’m not scared.

6:21pm: This body is my home…

6:42pm: Me: “What unique abilities do Cobra snakes have?”

Gemini: “Cobra snakes possess several unique abilities that set them apart:

1. Hood Expansion: Cobras are most famous for their ability to flatten their neck ribs and expand the skin in this area to form a hood. This dramatic display serves as a warning to potential predators, making the cobra appear larger and more intimidating. The patterns on the hood can also be distinctive and vary between species.

2. Venom Spitting (in some species): Certain cobra species, like the black-necked spitting cobra, can accurately project venom from their fangs towards the eyes of a perceived threat. This venom can cause intense pain and even blindness if not treated promptly.

3. Potent Neurotoxic Venom: Cobra venom is typically neurotoxic, meaning it primarily affects the nervous system. This can lead to paralysis, including the muscles responsible for breathing, which can be fatal. The specific composition and potency of the venom vary among different cobra species.

4. Impressive Size (King Cobra): The King Cobra (Ophiophagus hannah) is the world's longest venomous snake, reaching lengths of up to 18 feet. Its size, combined with its potent venom, makes it a formidable predator.

5. Snake-Eating Behavior (King Cobra): The King Cobra's genus name, Ophiophagus, literally means "snake-eater." A significant portion of its diet consists of other snakes, including venomous ones. They possess a degree of immunity to the venom of some other snakes.

6. Nest Building (King Cobra): Female King Cobras are unique among snakes in that they build nests for their eggs. They use leaf litter and other vegetation to create a mound where they lay their eggs and protect them until they hatch.

7. Distinctive Hiss: Cobras, particularly the King Cobra, have a deep, growling hiss that is much lower in pitch than that of most other snakes. This unique vocalization adds to their intimidating presence.

8. Heightened Intelligence (King Cobra): Compared to other snakes, King Cobras are considered to be quite intelligent. They are active hunters with keen eyesight and can adapt their behavior to different situations.

These unique abilities have allowed cobras to thrive in various environments and have contributed to their iconic status in both the natural world and human culture.”

6:52pm: Okay my transformation is beginning now. I’m shifting….

6:55pm: I have to merge my mental realm with this physical realm, I need to improvise when I interact with my nonphysical being. This is how I can maintain higher connection with myself. Stronger connection.

7:22pm: I’ve officially become the opposer I’ve despised for so long. I’m on the other side of my mirror. Now things are getting exciting.