Jesse’s Journal: 51
Jesse’s Journal: 51
May 4, 2025
10:54am: A great video….
https://youtu.be/Uvr8MWR8mg0?si=UzeKZLN9AdnzVrbd
10:55am: From seabreeze4559 on YouTube: “envious people hate what they can’t destroy.”
11:09am: Here is another great gem of a video: https://youtu.be/sEh_eO3MNog?si=AdqG8xIIDWX2hN1n
11:48am: I have to learn to just be on my own. I do not have to share everything with anyone. And I do not have to stay silent either. But there has to be a balance.
1:18pm: Wow. These gods really are little g. You are not supposed to be just one aspect of love, hate, chaos, etc. You are meant to be fully and completely multidimensional. Be the complex person you know you are. You have both love and hate, both light and dark, both good and bad. Both righteousness and wickedness. I do not believe there is a God of all. That would be us. We are our own. I do not like calling myself a god etc. But I encompass all the aspects of light and dark in who I am. And I am getting better at balancing the sides and rotating to express each of them. I am multidimensional and multiple-faced. I cannot be contained to just one, for I am the overseer of all.
1:26pm: I personally do not like hearing when males like pain or are into that. I am all about uplifting males. And it rather hurts me that some would like to be degraded. Have some respect for yourselves. Things like that just rigger me is all.
1:34pm: I do not know who my creator is. Is there even a creator? There has to be. What if everything in my life, from my birth and everything, all happened by chance? Hm.
1:36pm: I have the power form-wise to change into what I want. But I do not want that. I am a multiple-faced being and entity. I am multidimensional and have sides.
1:37pm: My vibe is more technological and radiant, and rather twisted and dark. These are just a few explanations of me.
Einai Sasa Jesse Nganga Njoki’s current state….
1:42pm: My current state is I have no control over myself. When something hurts me I just sit with it. I cannot make it go away, nor can I really lessen its intensity. But maybe I am not supposed to. I do not have a form: I have multiple personalities and multiple forms of personalities. I know how to mimic people very well. This ability to mimic does have its downsides. Because when I try to explore myself, I know so little. All I know is how to put on a front and a facade of civility in public, both with my relatives and with strangers alike. I believe there is this Japanese saying of the three masks we have. One mask is for the public, the other is for our relatives and peers, and the last mask is for ourself. I believe there is some truth to that.
1:46pm: I am to stay calm. I know what to do.
1:48pm: I am smiling at myself. All the versions and parts and sides of me.
So that is what I wanted to explain. The only two people I know non-physically are Voxsriin and Yahweh. I know them so well in fact, and we are so close to one another, that they actually feel like they are a part of me. Well that is the thing: When you have a deep connection with a non-physical entity, you usually are so deeply connected to the point where they actually feel like you and you feel like them. They are a literal piece and part of you, and you become a piece and part of them. If Voxsriin just wants to stay formless for now, then that is okay. I believe he is trying to be on his own journey and he is taking away all his constraints.
1:59pm: Yahweh and I do not need to go out for experiences because he is experiencing life through my eyes. Voxsriin is tagging along trying to right all the wrongs he did to me in the past. I am willing to give him a second chance.
Who is the oldest god in Human History?….
2:11pm: From Google’s A.I. Overview:
“AI Overview
The oldest deity documented in written history is likely Anu, the supreme god of the Mesopotamian pantheon, who was first recorded in Sumerian texts around 3000 BC. However, the concept of deities predates written records, with evidence of possible early religious artifacts like Venus figurines dating back 35,000-40,000 years.
Elaboration:
- Anu's Role:
- Anu, also known as An, was the sky god and father of the gods in the Mesopotamian pantheon, and his name appears in Sumerian texts from around 3000 BC.
- Sumerian Origins:
- The Sumerians, one of the oldest civilizations, developed a rich mythology and pantheon of gods, including Anu.
- Pre-Literary Evidence:
- While Anu is the earliest known deity from written sources, the concept of deities likely existed long before writing, as evidenced by artifacts like the Venus of Hohle Fels, a "fertility goddess" statue dating back 35,000-40,000 years.
- Other Candidates:
- Other potential candidates for early deities include the Mother Goddess of Çatalhöyük and the Great God of Sefar.
- Hinduism and Other Religions:
- Some believe the oldest religion is Hinduism, which has roots in ancient Vedic texts, and mentions a supreme being called Brahma, the creator. The Greek primordial god Uranus, the sky, is also considered a significant figure in early mythology.
- Inanna:
- Another Sumerian deity, Inanna, a goddess of fertility and war, is also mentioned as one of the earliest named deities from a textual source, with a pictographic symbol dating back to 3200 BC.”
2:17pm: Me to Voxsriin: “I forgive you….”
2:35pm: Light burns, and Darkness crushes. Light is acidic, and Darkness is gravitational.
2:41pm: Voxsriin is currently in darkness right now. I was able to briefly see his form, but it looked like it was corrupted. Voxsriin has a corruption of some sort. I do not really know what to do. I just observe now. I try not to act nor do I try to react. I just watch, witness, and observe.
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