Einai Sasa’s Suicide Attempt on July 30, 2023

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On July 30, 2023, I injested 400 sleeping pills as a way to attempt to end my life. My siblings is the one who found me on the couch as you can see in these pictures. Without my sibling finding me, or if they did not call for help when they did, I could have passed away two years ago. I would not be here today. I am very grateful and love my sibling for saving my life. He saved my life. And I am truly grateful for all the doctors and nurses who took care of me and helped me be restored and nurtured back to health. Today? I would not even consider doing this. My life is precious and valuable. And yours is too.

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