Einai Sasa’s Spiritual Journal: Entry 20

Einai Sasa’s Spiritual Journal: Entry 20

3:16AM: Mani 1 is currently traveling right now. There is a piece of me that is currently observing my bright core soul. I can hear Jesse’s pure child-like laughter from within this bright orb core soul. But now Mani 1 is fighting something. Oh. It is the green demon he is fighting.

3:18AM: It seems to be a feminine manifestation of my spirit who is holding my core soul Jesse piece as she speaks to Yahusha. 3:19AM: They seem to be examining it.

3:30AM: After doing a scan on my body: I need to be more confident. It is hindering my spiritual growth. I shall inform Yahuah about this.

3:31AM: My spirit and I are discussing how I can reject people without being rude: Because I have no issues with setting boundaries, I have issues with setting boundaries in a kind manner. People are so moved and easily manipulated by kindness it turns them desperate for affection. Even if the said affection is from somebody really toxic and potentially even dangerous. Anyways, back to the discussion.

3:32AM: My Spirit No Name: “You must reject politely. If this too much for you to handle, then just reject them silently and walk away. Such as a silent block on every access that they may have with you, as I know you are concerned about retaliation. Keep all of your old conversations incase they would like to accuse you for something you did not do. Keep records and evidence of everything. This is why having these daily journals are so important. Ok?”

3:34AM: No Name: “Got it.”

3:35AM: No Name is what I now feel comfortable calling my spirit because it has no name. Absolutely nothing can describe me. Other than being Yahuah’s Creation. But yeah. I shall just stick to No Name, also known as NN for short. After so many months of having all of these name changes, I believe I am ready to finally call my self what I truly am, which is the closest depiction of nothingness there is. The No Name.

3:50AM: My consciousness left partially. And as I was sinking deeper, turning more dense and turning more like my spirit, I heard someone say, “HUHHHHH??????!!!!” As I was descending downwards.

3:55AM: I just turned to look up at the stairs and I see this tall shadowy demon at least seven feet tall staring down at me saying something along the lines of: “Yeah I can see you!” So I said….

NN: “Come downstairs let’s talk!” The demon said “NOPE!” While making a wave with his hand gesture and he began to fade away. 

3:57AM: Oh believe me I shall throw hands with all you demons, devils, and workers of evil. And some of you all know it in the spirit world. In the physical world here I am more civil, but in the spirit world I do not play.

5:08AM: So this is another tactic from the enemy. He throws me into harmful situations. Situations that make bring out my negative sides, and then he goes on to berate me and act like he’s teaching me when he is actually just trying to degrade me.

6:55AM: NN: “We are not meant to see everything, nor are we meant to understand everything, what we are meant to do is see what we are meant to see, and understand what we are meant to understand. And this can only be done through Yahuah’s Word. Yahuah’s Only Word.

7:01AM: NN: “The real battle is within us ourselves as the individual.”

7:16AM: I am still learning to stay in my own lane. I have now learned that I could have avoided this situation with this client by simply waking up on the set schedule and not choosing to change things up. I do not need to be extra! Like less is more sometimes and that is totally okay. Oh Yahuah, I am sorry. For I have now learned. Sheesh though, Yahuah, learning experiences can be so painful.

7:29AM: I can feel that demons drained me from today. They are now trying their hardest to get me feeling the worst and thinking the worst of every outcome, when I know that my God Yahuah is indeed with me. Although the demons did drain me a bit this morning, I am still going to complete my program today. I have a busy day and week ahead of me. Oh also the demons were sending very sinking and  painful attacks into my heart center. They literally felt like jabs in my chest. Right at the heart. Satan knows that I am fighting more against his dark stronghold way more than he is working to sabotage me which is why he is trying even harder now. This issue with the client is like the fifth sabotaging event from Satan to happen to me very recently these past two weeks. Not even two weeks. More like one and a half weeks. 7:35AM: As No Name once warned me, “I would expect attacks from Satan everyday….”

9:03AM: I am going to be as distant as possible with this client from this mess of a morning but I will not let it interfere with my Faith nor my program. Also, I have discovered that I cannot have fun. I must stay serious. Not with others mostly, but with my self entirely. 10:53AM: Well I can have fun with Yahuah 🙂‍↕️😄

10:37AM: Okay so here is what No Name said: “If you know that you are so moved by emotions and by your emotional spirit, then how about you start by healing yourself emotionally?”

10:38AM: Also Emotions are the Heart of the Spirit. Like the complete spirit and not just the emotional spirit. The emotions express themselves in a spiritual manner yes, but also emotions are what your spirit feels and is expressing. 10:45AM: Emotions are not just a part of your core, they actually are your core. Yahuah the God of the Holy Bible and the Creator of everything knows this, which is why He is trying to heal us emotionally. If you pay enough attention to Yahuah’s Scripture then you would all easily be able to see how He is trying to restore our spiritual cores, which are our emotions, first before anything.

11:25AM: I am passing super secret notes to Yahuah! 😊

12:37PM: I shall help where I am needed, but I shall never ever negotiate my boundaries. There is nothing wrong with helping people in need, but please do not let them make you a doormat.

12:53PM: I am seeing symbols now. 

12:58PM: I am feeling another wave of anxiety and fear.

1:06PM: I am feeling anxiety and I feel like passing out again. Another wave of anxiety, tension, and evil.

1:13PM: I can see Yahuah! I missed You so much! 🥹. This? 🥹 is literally my face.

1:17PM: I am sobbing. Oh I am finding myself! My real self. I shall hide who I truly am to others and only show myself to Yahuah. He knows everything! From my deepest darkest secrets and more!

1:19PM: Whoa I feel like panicking! I feel like going on a sprint. There is an argument happening between my spirit and myself. We are No Name.

1:52PM: I am experiencing Overflow again. Yup. Yikes.

4:03PM: Okay so still going through Overflow but I made it back safely to my room so thank you Yahuah.

4:06PM: Okay time to post this entry. A little nervous to, I do not feel coherent right now.