Einai Sasa’s Spiritual Journal: Entry 18

Einai Sasa’s Spiritual Journal: Entry 18

April 7th, 2025 Monday

4:52PM: Currently feeling anxiety at the moment. 

5:53PM: I am now going to go to sleep. Good night.

April 8th, 2025 Tuesday 

4:43AM: Me Yishaiyah: “How can I fully understand myself psychologically? What questions do I need to ask myself in order to do this?”

Gemini: “Fully understanding yourself psychologically is a lifelong journey, not a destination. It involves continuous self-reflection, learning, and growth. Here's a breakdown of how you can approach this and crucial questions to ask yourself:

I. Cultivating Self-Awareness:

 * Pay Attention to Your Thoughts and Feelings:

   * What thoughts frequently run through your mind? Are they positive, negative, critical, or anxious?

   * What emotions do you experience regularly? What triggers them?

   * How do you physically experience your emotions (e.g., tension, racing heart)?

   * Are you aware of your automatic reactions and biases?

 * Observe Your Behaviors and Habits:

   * What are your typical patterns of behavior in different situations (work, relationships, alone)?

   * What are your habits, both healthy and unhealthy?

   * Do your actions align with your values and goals?

   * What are your strengths and weaknesses in terms of skills and personality traits?

 * Reflect on Your Experiences:

   * What significant life events have shaped you? How did they impact you?

   * What lessons have you learned from your successes and failures?

   * What are your recurring challenges or patterns in relationships or work?

 * Practice Mindfulness and Meditation:

   * These practices can help you become more present and observe your thoughts and feelings without judgment.

II. Exploring Your Inner World:

 * Identify Your Core Values:

   * What principles are most important to you in life (e.g., honesty, kindness, achievement, creativity)?

   * Do your current life choices reflect these values?

   * What happens when your values are challenged or compromised?

 * Understand Your Beliefs:

   * What are your fundamental beliefs about yourself, others, and the world?

   * Where did these beliefs come from (childhood, experiences, culture)?

   * Are these beliefs serving you, or are some of them limiting or negative?

 * Examine Your Needs and Motivations:

   * What are your basic psychological needs (e.g., autonomy, competence, relatedness)?

   * What motivates your actions and choices? Are you driven by intrinsic or extrinsic factors?

   * What are your short-term and long-term goals, and why are they important to you?

 * Explore Your Fears and Insecurities:

   * What are your biggest fears? What are you afraid of losing?

   * What makes you feel insecure or inadequate?

   * How do you cope with these feelings?

III. Understanding Your Relationships:

 * Analyze Your Attachment Style:

   * How do you typically form and maintain close relationships? Are you secure, anxious, avoidant, or disorganized?

   * What patterns have you noticed in your past relationships?

   * How do you handle conflict and intimacy?

 * Reflect on Your Communication Style:

   * How do you express your needs and feelings? Are you direct, passive, aggressive, or passive-aggressive?

   * How well do you listen to others?

   * What impact does your communication have on your relationships?

 * Consider Your Role in Family Dynamics:

   * What was your role in your family of origin? How did those dynamics influence you?

   * What patterns from your family do you see repeating in your current relationships?

IV. Seeking External Perspectives and Resources:

 * Talk to Trusted Friends and Family:

   * Share your thoughts and feelings with people you trust and whose opinions you value.

   * Ask for their perspectives on your strengths, weaknesses, and patterns.

 * Consider Therapy or Counseling:

   * A therapist can provide a safe and non-judgmental space to explore your inner world, gain insights, and develop coping mechanisms.

   * They can help you identify and address underlying issues that may be hindering your self-understanding.

 * Read Self-Help Books and Articles:

   * Explore different psychological concepts and theories that resonate with you.

   * Be discerning and choose reputable sources.

 * Take Personality Assessments (with Caution):

   * Tools like the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI) or the Big Five personality traits can offer some insights, but remember they are not definitive and should be used as a starting point for reflection.

 * Join Support Groups:

   * Connecting with others who share similar experiences can provide valuable support and perspective.

Key Questions to Ask Yourself:

Here's a more structured list of questions to guide your self-exploration:

About Your Thoughts and Feelings:

 * What am I thinking about most often?

 * What emotions do I feel throughout the day?

 * What triggers these emotions?

 * How do I react when I feel [specific emotion]?

 * Am I aware of my inner critic? What does it say?

 * Do I tend to focus on the positive or negative?

About Your Behaviors and Habits:

 * What are my daily routines? Are they serving me?

 * What do I do when I'm stressed or upset?

 * What are my go-to coping mechanisms? Are they healthy?

 * What are my strengths and weaknesses in different areas of my life?

 * What are my procrastination habits? Why do I procrastinate?

About Your Values and Beliefs:

 * What is truly important to me in life?

 * What are my core principles?

 * What do I believe to be true about myself? About others? About the world?

 * Where did these beliefs come from?

 * Are my beliefs flexible, or am I rigid in my thinking?

About Your Needs and Motivations:

 * What do I need to feel fulfilled and happy?

 * What drives my choices and actions?

 * What are my goals, and why are they important to me?

 * Am I living a life that aligns with my values and needs?

About Your Relationships:

 * What is my attachment style?

 * What patterns do I see in my relationships?

 * How do I communicate my needs and feelings?

 * How do I handle conflict?

 * What role did I play in my family growing up? How does that affect me now?

About Your Past Experiences:

 * What are the most significant events in my life?

 * How have these events shaped me?

 * What lessons have I learned from my past?

 * Are there any unresolved traumas or experiences I need to address?

About Your Future:

 * What kind of person do I want to be?

 * What are my aspirations and dreams?

 * What steps can I take to move towards my goals?

Remember:

 * Be patient and kind to yourself. Self-discovery takes time and effort.

 * Be honest with yourself. Avoid denial or self-deception.

 * Be open to new perspectives. Challenge your assumptions and beliefs.

 * Embrace discomfort. Growth often happens outside your comfort zone.

 * This is an ongoing process. Self-understanding evolves as you experience new things and grow as a person.

By consistently engaging in self-reflection and asking yourself these kinds of questions, you can gradually gain a deeper and more comprehensive understanding of your psychological self. Good luck on your journey!”

5:00AM: I forgot to mention that last night my legs felt like tentacles. They were all mushy as I was going deeper and deeper into my spirit world.

7:06AM: When it comes to my spirit, I need to stop looking for something tangible. The root of the spirit is that it operates within the unseen.

7:09AM: We are still the same spirit as we were before we came here into the physical world of earth. When we depart from this realm, the only thing that shall change is our level of focus. Our focus will be more into the spirit and the unseen. Rather than the physical tangible.

7:16AM: The battle for Good and Evil is all within me. Every bad entity is within my spirit. But the only thing that I am certainly not is that I am not Yahuah. He is the Only Great I Am.

10:15AM: Wow Satan will not stop trying me. This is just laughable. Satan you are actually amusing at this point. Thinking that I am going to fall for your rubbish this time again. Shame on you.

10:22AM: I shall no longer take what I want, but only when I need. The only WANTS that I have are my goals and my program. Everything else is a need and a definite necessity. Praise Yahuah.

1:17PM: I have a big secret as to who I am. Who my spirit truly is. It is a secret that is within all of us. But I shall only star code it. I am *****.

1:18PM: I am ***** redeeming themselves. But it makes so much sense. I can feel the darkness growing within me. And I must fight this darkness. I will fight and battle on.

2:32PM: The spirit world is even heavier than the physical world. This physical world is not the densest place there is. The spiritual is even lower. This is what I have discovered just now.

2:48PM: I never really had a spiritual form until now. This physical body form is also my direct spirit form. I am going lower into the spirit world. The only time I will go higher is when my Lovely Father Yahuah calls me out of the descent.

2:54PM: I have to focus on my structure. In order to access the spirit world, I need to go furthermore deeper into my bones. And in order to gain understanding of my spirit world, I need to furthermore read Yahuah’s Holy Word.

2:57PM: Up until now my spirit was infected with doubts. But people need to understand how heavy and powerful the spirit world is. It is a way that is very dense. And it is not light ever. It is actually the physical world that is lighter and less dense.

3:38PM: Going to post this entry now.