Einai Sasa’s Off-Topic Journal: Entry 2
Einai Sasa’s Off-Topic Journal: Entry 2
April 9th, 2025 Wednesday
4:08AM: One of the clients perhaps forgot something and we are not allowed to open the door so while I do feel bad I am not going to jeopardize myself for somebody that I do not even know. He kept banging the door at like 4AM?! Anyways I feel like he is the type to escalate stuff and I am documenting this just incase things escalate. 4:14AM: I was feeling very conflicted. But I am glad I stood my ground.
4:13AM: I feel like I am going to have a panic attack because I feel like he is the type to fight me. This guy has a criminal record. One of the clients that I shall not name for privacy reasons. So if things escalate? Well I know the Lord Yahuah is with me.
4:20AM: I honestly feel like that guy has a hit out for me. Which sucks because I used to be so nice to him. It was the same guy that said “Ooooh yeaaaahhhh” If you know you know.
NN: “He might not have a hit out for you but Satan truly does. I believe that Satan put you in that situation to get you into drama so you might be harmed.”
4:23PM: NN: “Yes. All because I did not open a stupid door? It is not my fault that there are rules against opening the door and him perhaps forgetting something.”
4:56AM: Okay so the thing that I myself know for sure I did wrong was being in the living room at around 2AM. I did not know we were not supposed to be in the living room period. I just thought the tv and eating were supposed to be done at a certain time. I am so sorry Yahuah. I admit my faults. 6:12AM: All of them.
5:14AM: I am going to pass out after all this panic. Oh my goodness. Oh Yahuah please protect me. Satan will stop at nothing clearly. I need Your protection Yahuah, but Satan can bring it on cause I ain’t stopping. I am not stopping. I shall never stop trying to serve You better Yahuah. I need You. And I always shall need You Yahuah.
6:02AM: Ok so just talked to the House Manager about this situation and he seemed very understanding thank You to Yahuah. Now what is next is to talk to the guy I left outside. Maybe not now. But Yahuah? May you please give this guy enough peace that he needs, so we can just have a civil discussion. I do take this as a learning experience. But sometimes learning is just so painful.
7:15AM: Google’s AI Overview:
“AI Overview
Yes, an Airbus A380 is significantly larger than a blue whale in terms of length, with the A380 being as long as two blue whales and as tall as five giraffes.
Here's a more detailed comparison:
- Airbus A380:
- Length: 238.5 feet (73 meters)
- Wingspan: 261.8 feet (80 meters)
- Height: 79.1 feet (24 meters)
- Blue Whale:
- Average Length: 80 feet (24 meters)
- Largest Recorded Length: 110 feet (33.5 meters)”
11:36AM: I have some diaries to write and update, but for now? I am just going to have fun with Yahuah. We are playing with fidget spinners. 😊
5:37PM: Okay so the guy just apologized to me from this morning and I apologized to him and may Yahuah bless him and protect him. If he is reading this I want him to know that I really am working on myself and I really hope the best for you and I hope you succeed in your recovery cause you will. The conversation starting was scary though but he was very peaceful. 5:42PM: Yahuah diffused the tension and it is over now and I have nothing against that guy at all. And I truly hope he recovers because he is a strong person and I want the best for him. But yeah. So the tension is gone but my anxiety ain’t. I seriously need to recover.
12:39PM: I have the iPhone 12 Mini currently.
1:30PM: I just learned that the Pacific Ocean is the largest and deepest ocean basin in the world.
April 13th, 2025 Sunday….
7:01AM: Unknown: “Okay so I use my phone to journal and document reports as to how my day was, but how can I stay away from my cell phone besides that and actually live my life and actually enjoy the moment?”
7:02AM: Gemini: “It's great that you're aware of your phone usage and want to be more present! Here are some strategies to help you step away from your cell phone, even while using it for journaling and reports:
1. Be Intentional with Your Journaling/Reporting Time:
* Schedule Specific Times: Instead of constantly checking in, dedicate specific blocks of time for journaling and report documentation. Treat these like appointments.
* Focus During These Times: When you're using your phone for these tasks, be fully present. Avoid getting sidetracked by notifications or other apps.
* Close the App When Done: Once you've finished your journaling or reporting, immediately close the app. This creates a clear boundary.
2. Create Phone-Free Zones and Times:
* Designated No-Phone Areas: Establish areas in your home where phones are not allowed, such as the dining table, bedroom, or even specific chairs in the living room.
* Meal Times: Make a rule that no phones are allowed during meals, whether you're alone or with others. This encourages mindful eating and better connection.
* The First and Last Hour of the Day: Resist the urge to check your phone immediately upon waking or right before bed. Use this time for other activities like reading, stretching, or quiet reflection.
* During Activities: When you're engaged in an activity you want to enjoy (hiking, spending time with friends, watching a sunset), consciously leave your phone in your bag or pocket and resist the urge to take it out.
3. Manage Notifications:
* Turn Off Non-Essential Notifications: Limit notifications to only the truly important apps (calls, direct messages from close contacts, etc.). Disable notifications for social media, games, and other distracting apps.
* Use "Do Not Disturb" Mode: Utilize your phone's "Do Not Disturb" feature during specific times or activities to silence all alerts. You can often customize it to allow calls from certain contacts.
4. Make Your Phone Less Appealing:
* Move Apps: Bury distracting apps in folders on later screens so they aren't immediately visible.
* Change Your Screen to Grayscale: This can make your phone less visually stimulating and reduce the urge to browse.
* Set App Limits: Many phones have built-in features that allow you to set daily time limits for specific apps.
5. Cultivate Phone-Free Hobbies and Activities:
* Rediscover Analog Activities: Engage in hobbies that don't involve screens, such as reading physical books, drawing, painting, playing a musical instrument, gardening, cooking, or doing puzzles.
* Spend Time in Nature: Go for walks, hikes, or bike rides and leave your phone behind (or use it only for emergencies).
* Engage in Social Activities: Prioritize face-to-face interactions with friends and family. When you're together, make a conscious effort to put phones away.
* Practice Mindfulness: Engage in activities that promote being present in the moment, such as meditation, yoga, or simply paying attention to your senses.
6. Be Mindful of Your Urges:
* Notice When You Reach for Your Phone: Become aware of the triggers that make you want to pick up your phone (boredom, waiting, feeling awkward).
* Ask Yourself "Why?": Before reaching for your phone, pause and ask yourself what you're hoping to gain by using it at that moment. Is it a genuine need or just a habit?
* Find Alternatives: When you feel the urge to use your phone, try doing something else instead, even if it's just taking a deep breath, looking around, or stretching.
7. Consider Alternatives for Journaling (Sometimes):
While you like using your phone for journaling, occasionally switching to a physical notebook and pen can provide a different experience and help you disconnect from your device.
8. Track Your Usage:
Use your phone's built-in screen time tracker or a third-party app to monitor how much time you're actually spending on your phone. Seeing the data can be eye-opening and motivate you to make changes.
Key Takeaway:
Reducing phone usage is about creating conscious habits and finding fulfilling alternatives. Start small, be patient with yourself, and celebrate your progress. The goal isn't to eliminate your phone entirely, but to use it intentionally and create more space for enjoying the present moment.”
7:04AM: Unknown: “Posting this diary entry….”
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