Entry #60: Update Report Log: The Final Part

Current Date:

Monday March 24th, 2025

Current Timezone:

Pacific Standard Time

12:58AM: I have just posted part one of this report log. Will now post this one at around 5:00PM sharp. Elohiym willing.

1:02AM: We do not believe the Ark of the Covenant is in the physical. It is in the spiritual. At least this is what I currently believe until I read the Bible deeper and I am shown otherwise. The Bible does indeed describe how it looks. 

The Most Current Update on and About My Names….

1:20AM: Me: “We have no identity. It is almost as if all those names that I have called myself are now nullified and void. The prior names are now meaningless.”

6:54AM: Just woke up from our first round of sleep. Thank You Elohiym for allowing us to live to see another day. While we were in the Ruach, we were speaking about something that shall occur in the year of 2060. I will be around 58 years old by then. It was in this dream, but I do believe that even when you are dreaming you are still in the spirit world.

8:25AM: I am beginning to get really tired right now in the spirit world. We have been working with the *** ** *** ******** for many hours already, and we do not know when we shall finish.

8:33AM: Still working on the *** ** *** ********. But what is different is another piece of my presence is going over to Elohiym. So I am in two places at once.

9:35AM: I can smell something foul. It is in the spirit.

9:44AM: The focus towards the *** ** *** ********  is fading. It is getting less and less stronger.

9:52AM: We are focusing more on the *** ** *** ********. We can see the importance of doing so. Elohiym wants to make me its Keeper. Keeper of the *** ** *** ********. This is the beginning of my spiritual journey.

9:56AM: Yahweh is teaching us about how there is so much lies about Science. So much lies within it. Science has satanic origin. Real truth can be found in the scripture of Elohiym.

9:59AM: I kept focusing on my task, and I hear this corrupt being say ‘YOU THINK YOU ARE SPECIAL?!’

10:02AM: I have discovered that the peace of me that is working on the *** ** *** ******** is actually harnessing it for the green demon and his gang. This is part of the corrupt version of me. The part of me that dwells within the Ra.

10:03AM: Me: “As its Keeper I cannot let you do this. I cannot let you steal from it.”

10:04AM: The Ra part of me is trying to fight my influence. We will need the assistance of Elohiym. He is already assisting us, we see Him moving in a way that we cannot comprehend.

10:20AM: I do not know what my next move is. Perhaps we should stay still and keep focusing, and allowing Elohiym to do His thing.

12:13PM: My left ear is currently ringing.

12:56PM: I was abandoned. I no longer have the versions of me around. They all left me. I am here on earth alone. All alone. I suppose the one that is here with me, that witnesses me, is my Father Elohiym.

12:58PM: I am feeing a soul pain. This pain that I am feeing goes far beyond the physical. This hurts. I will never be enough for anyone. Even if I were to lose all this weight and more, there will always be the next thing that people nitpick and judge me for. Why can’t I just be loved? I am a little upset at my Elohiym for saying ‘love your neighbors as yourself.’ My neighbors hate me. We shall always strive to follow the commandments regardless, but I just wanted to share how we were feeling. We see Elohiym watching. He says to give Him our troubles, He says that He will handle it. *Sigh* I do not know what else to say.

1:10PM: I am crying right now. So much pain. Let me sink in deep into it. I will let this pain teach me. To teach me to never be naive, to never be oblivious. I need to understand the ugliness of mankind. Man is very hideous in action. Our souls are not hideous, although we tend to change when we are born here on earth because we are all born into sin.

1:14PM: Elohiym, my Father, is taking all distractions away from me. He wants me to focus on Him and Him only. I am mad at the moment. I am so tired of dealing with mankind. They are so dumb. They are jerks for all the wrong reasons. I do not get it. You could be the best of the best, the most pure, and they would still hunt you down and end you. Just look at what they did to our Yahusha! When?! When shall justice and judgment take place?! ELOHIYM! I CALL FOR JUDGEMENT!

1:24PM: We are focusing on ourself, and then we hear a voice say: “Jesse, I have known you since before you were born.”

1:25PM: I am too upset to care honestly. I can feel myself turning dark and shifting to my Ra side.

Working on Myself….

1:39PM: I look into Myself….

Me: “It seems as though your understanding is a bit off. Something is tampering with your understanding. It is from your memories.”

Something Happened Today….

3:04PM: Me: “Hi ****** just making a report, although the perpetrator apologized I still would like to make a report: Shower situation again.

Was changing and heard somebody coming and then I told them I am changing and not to come in. Guess what their response was? 

“Oooooh yeahhhhh!”

And they kept walking towards the curtain and I had to be more stern and say that I was changing. They eventually stopped.

I believe they were joking but I have been through a lot today and I almost snapped. His name is *****. And while he did apologize and I am willing to forgive I just wanted this documented.”

3:12PM: Me to my Direct Relatives……

“All I have to say to you all is that I am working on it and I am a work in progress. To me? Things take time and should not be rushed. I will not allow your destructive criticism to pressure me into working on myself overload to the point I burn out.

Everything I do should be incremental. I have been through a lot today and a lot of harassment and I just wanted to be on my own journey with MY Father Elohiym. He is mine and I am going to continue serving Him. Even though I am upset at some of His commandments.

Like the 'Love a neighbor as yourself?' Some of y'all are so damn rude and critical, look at yourselves before you come to me, because I AM ALREADY WORKING ON MYSELF! Do you even read my posts? If you read them you would know.

I am going to leave this time and again and this time I am going to stay gone. I love you guys, I miss you guys, but when it comes to my own journey? Back off. Nothing you guys say has helped me, it only brought me down and discouraged me! But oh I get it. It is my fault, I will not be answering anymore.

Please leave me alone, I have things to fulfill. Thank you, and with all due respect, focus on yourselves and taking care of your children. I am already on my road to recovery. Please stop pressuring me.

Leave me alone.”

3:13PM: Me to Myself: “It is over now. Calm down….”

After What Happened…..

3:26PM: Me: “I think I am going to take a rest now. I took a shower and took my evening medications a few hours early so I can just sleep. I have got a busy day tomorrow and I am going to rest. We wish to go into the spirit world. Just super tired of everyone today, and we feel as though our Elohiym is far away. But He is not, He is watching us from His throne and we can see Him. Anyway, goodbye, and good night. I shall only wake up to post this public report log at around 5:00PM sharp.”

3:29PM: Me: “Oh. And I shall only report the events that are as needed. Ok. Good night.”

3:43PM: My heart hurts. It feels like a burn. My relatives are so unsupportive. I do not want them to be around me anymore. And I do not forgive them for this yet, Elohiym knows.

4:49PM: Me: “I am feeling joy? As I was speaking to my friend and her mama about my challenging day, I felt this inherent joy wash over me. Thank You Elohiym. We can now say that we forgive our relatives, and we forgive the client that harassed us. But boundaries have been made, are being made, and have been established. We forgive, but we shall not forget. Thank You Elohiym. ‘We are out, but we are not down’. Amen.”

4:51PM: I am now going to post this public diary support entry log. Thank you Elohiym. Elohiym does love me! Aw. But He loved me in a way that is authentic and does not operate through just feelings alone. We shall learn Elohiym. We shall learn.