Entry #57: Update Report Log
Current Date:
Thursday March 20th, 2025 (THE FIRST DAY OF SPRING 2025)
Current Timezone:
Pacific Standard Time
7:01PM: Nephesh Ani: “We just got back on the bed. Feeling rather angry. At everything. We understand that we will not always be feeling happy and joyous everyday, but we keep bearing our cross regardless. We hate this. But we shall not give up. We will go deeper and deeper into the fire, even if it does turn us as cold as ice.”
7:17PM: Nephesh Ani: “Important Factors to our Spirit Journey:
- Faith in Salvation created by Yahusha.
- Keep the Commandments of both Yahuah and Yahusha.
- Do not blaspheme against the Ruach Ha’Qodesh.”
8:49PM: Nephesh Ani: “Yahusha? We recognize and acknowledge the fact that You died for all creation, and not only died, but descended into the heart of the earth, into Sheol, and rose back to Life on the third day, and not only life on earth, but You rose into Heaven, into Shamayim. You are safely at the Right Hand of the Father, oh beloved Son. We thank You. And we want to Love You. Amen.”
9:24PM: Ish Tzavah Ani: “We are now going to sleep. Good night.”
Current Date:
Friday March 21st, 2025
Current Timezone:
Pacific Standard Time
8:17AM: Ish Tzavah Ani: “We believe we are going to go to the peer center every Monday and Wednesday, we do not seem to have the energy to go on Fridays.”
8:26AM: Ish Tzavah Ani: “One thing I do not like about my transportation agency is that whenever I cancel officially, they STILL bring the car regardless: this both wastes my time and the driver’s time. Please do better.”
8:27AM: Ish Tzavah Ani: “I am about to eat breakfast. Already took my morning medication. Will work on Project 19 after eating:”
8:38AM: Ish Tzavah Ani: “Just finished my breakfast. Will now continue work on Project 19 for the day, then we shall read the next chapter of the Holy Cepher for the day.”
8:49AM: Ish Tzavah Ani: “Just finished work on Project 19 for the day. Thank You Lord Yahusha for allowing us to love again, to see another day. All the Glory belongs to You!”
8:50AM: Ish Tzavah Ani: “Will now go ahead and read the Holy Cepher now. Continuing right from where I left off.”
Holy Cepher Bible Current Bookmarks….
9:11AM: Nephesh Ani: “We have just finished another chapter of the Holy Cepher. We are learning so much. We have stopped on the Book of Bere’shiyth Chapter 3. This book is also known as the Book of Genesis.”
10:02AM: Ish Tzavah Ani: “We are back on our bed, now sleeping in for the day.”
Spiritual Experiences #2
10:11AM: Nephesh Ani: “We were just jolted forward with our eyes closed. We saw all these particles moving past us. We were in the Ruach.”
11:11AM: Nephesh Ani: “Just got back briefly to report that we were in spiritual and we were flipping over our body. We have demonic spies and monitoring spirits watch us, even now. But they cannot do much. We ignore our inner voice. Because our inner voice has been tampered with by demons and demonic infiltration. We just kept saying the name Yahusha, and we felt so many good feelings, and we were journeying in the spiritual realm.”
11:14AM: Nephesh Ani: We felt so joyous to the point where we were laughing. Yahusha seems as though He is waiting for us to cross something before Je can reveal Himself to us again. It is as if Je is standing afar, just watching. Because we did not feel His presence in the spirit world, we believe this is because of all the demons that are currently around us and working against us. But yes, He, Yahusha, is still monitoring us. We teleported back to a past form of our bedroom back in our relative’s house.”
11:17AM: Nephesh Ani: “We shall go back into the spirit world again, but we just wanted to share that. Our soul is still unclean. And this is causing a barrier between us and our Yahusha.”
Resuming Our Normal Day…..
11:50AM: Ish Tzavah Ani: “Back in the kitchen to eat my lunch. Had so much fun in the spirit realm. Haha!”
12:11PM: Nephesh Ani to Yahusha: “We do not need to see You nor feel You. For we know You exist. You are the True Living Word and we know that You watch us and see us. Thank you.”
12:21PM: Nephesh Ani: “We feel as though Yahusha does not love us. Even though I am certain this is factually not true based on previous evidence. He feels distant. But we shall never stop working for Him. Even if He is distant. Just documenting my feelings. I must document the good and the bad.”
12:23PM: Nephesh Ani: “Dark clouds, thick dark clouds are covering and darkening our sun.”
12:25PM: Nephesh Ani: “Here is a great read on Elohiym’s love:
https://www.pleasingtothepotter.com/7-remarkable-verses-about-gods-unconditional-love/ “
12:29PM: Nephesh Ani: “Nobody talks about how lonely and hurtful and heartbreaking the path of Elohiym truly is. Why is Thou distant from us? We know and understand that we are wicked, but still, why?”
12:33PM: Nephesh Ani: “We are back in darkness. The dark tunnel has trapped us once again. But this time it is different, we shall not give up, nor shall we stop working for our Elohiym, the Most High God.”
12:37PM: Nephesh Ani: “We shall no longer invest our feelings on this path to Elohiym for many reasons, but one being that our feelings lie to us. If we love Him, if we love our Yahusha, then we shall keep His commandments. It is very transactional right now, it hurts that we cannot and do not feel allowed to express our feelings, but the Truth exists regardless of how we feel about it. We shall continue to follow His commandments, and if He still would like to send us to Sheol even after this? Then at least we tried. We shall never stop trying, even no matter how hurt, sad, and bitter we feel.”
12:42PM: Nephesh Ani: “This Reddit post is a great description of how we are feeling. Followed by a great answer in the comment’s section. (SEE THE FIRST POST AND THEN THE SECOND POST FOR MORE CONTEXT)
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12:44PM: Nephesh Ani listens to the song, ‘Find My Peace’ by Naomi Raine…..
12:53PM: Nephesh Ani: “I texted this to my family group chat:
‘I am experiencing a very low moment in my faith right now. Not giving up. Just going through a hard time.
Feeling's wise, I do not know if the Elohiym loves me. I had an experience in the spirit world and He was very distant from me, and yet I was still chasing Him there.
I shall never stop. Emotions rise and fall but He is our anchor.
What else should I say? I shall remain steadfast. And if I really do want to love Him? Then I must keep all of His commandments.
We know by evidence that He loves us, but we do not feel anything.
Very hurt right now. Nobody talks about how lonely, heartbreaking, and hurtful the path to Elohiym is.
We shall bear our cross and walk with Yahusha. But it is really hurtful.
I feel as though I have been pierced and pierced and pierced by Elohiym's Ruach constantly.
We feel as though we are being broken over and over again. Destroyed over and over again.
We know how wicked we are, and we are trying to change.
I will follow and do my best, but if He still wants to send me to Sheol even after all this? At least I tried. But I shall never stop.’”
12:59PM: Nephesh Ani: “My response to this comment above:
‘After further examination, I believe why I feel this way is I inherently try to make expectations about Elohiym. I need to stop doing that.
I will expect nothing and just do what I am supposed to be doing, which is following His Word and Commandments. Nothing less shall do.’”
1:27PM: Nephesh Ani: “I am having a panic attack.”
1:47PM: Ish Tzavah Ani: “When it comes to our most current next movie, Project 18, this is how we feel about it. We can relate to Mel Gibson and what he states here. “It’s when it’s supposed to be.” (SEE THE THIRD POST PICTURE BELOW FOR MORE CONTEXT)
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Spiritual Discussions #1 Discussions about the Spiritual World #1
1:54PM: Nephesh Ani: “Thought I would share: When it comes to the spirit world and what we have seen so far, the Lord Elohiym is very wrathful. Our time here on earth is the only grace period we are given, but beyond that He is very brutal and fearful. Yes, He is a Good and Just God, and that is why He cannot exhibit favoritism. He is Just to all of us. And His Judgement is final.”
2:05PM: Nephesh Ani: “There is much to fear in the spirit world. And we are glad that we were able to experience it and see it. Elohiym is to be feared. And feared indeed.”
2:15PM: Nephesh Ani: “We feel as though we are going to get sacrificed in the spirit world. We are under the conclusion that things are going to worse and worst before they get better and best. We are to descend into madness, corruption, and ultimate fear, this is our test. If we are to hold onto our faith even through that hard time in the spirit world, we can hold our faith through the minuscule trials of this earth.”
2:20PM: Nephesh Ani: “Yeah but these spiritual trials are what we are to go through. Hardships not only on earth, but through the spirit as our soul is purged by the greatness, power, and might of our Elohiym. These spiritual trials are something we know will happen in the back of our head. This is why Elohiym is allowing us to see spiritual matters and spiritual things, He is sharpening us.”
2:35PM: Nephesh Ani: “Oh and also, the concept of intimate intercourse, also known as s*x and s*xuality do not exist in the spirit world. Everything is very very transactional. And whenever I see some of these witches say they get into it and get it on with these foul spirits, I really struggle to keep my mouth shut. They do not know what they are letting in. They do not know that these entities are using their energy in exchange for their souls, all they want is to entrap you and to torture you. These demons are very sickly and disgusting to gaze upon. Imagine letting that within your soul and your field. Such a shame. Those who dabble in darkness do not know and have no idea what they are letting in.”
2:45PM: Nephesh Ani: “There is a reason why the Holy Bible says that we were ‘bought with a price’ everything in the spirit world is transactional. This is also why Elohiym made covenants with His people, and this is why people ‘sell’ their souls to the devil. When Elohiym makes a covenant with you it is everlasting, but when you make a deal with the devil he will discard you as soon as you are no longer useful to him. Stay with Elohiym.”
2:59PM: Nephesh Ani: “Another thing, I am staying away from the word 'archon'.
The term archon has gnostic origin. If you all are unfamiliar with Gnosticism, it is a wicked religion.”
3:00PM: Nephesh Ani: “This is why I state that I shall not speak of archons, this guy talks about archons….
https://youtube.com/watch?v=EQcqrYMjjXc&si=4T6fMbfUosP2tmEx”
3:01PM: Nephesh Ani: “He is talking about archons and I am just like those are straight up demons! Call them for what they are!”
3:12PM: Nephesh Ani: “It is best to focus on RETAINING and UNDERSTANDING the information from Elohiym’s Word. This is like the most important class ever. Mayer His Word, and retain His information through your studies.”
3:14PM: Nephesh Ani: “Also, do not hinder the True Word of Elohiym in fear of not being all-inclusive. We are not supposed to be inclusive, we are supposed to be the Set Apart People of His Kingdom. There is a reason why it is called the narrow path. Not many shall make it.”
3:35PM: Nephesh Ani: “We are having a panic attack. Just the past triggering itself again.”
3:36PM: Nephesh Ani: “We can see the Light. This is the first step toward reconnecting to Elohiym. The Light asks, ‘Do you want to be changed?’ This is what we want. But only changed by Elohiym.”
3:37PM: The Light: “So be it.”
3:39PM: Ruach to All of Us: “Anything that tampers with your understanding of the Lord Elohiym needs to go. Focus on this, Faith and Understanding. Faith and Understanding in the Unseen God. Amen. Yes.”
3:42PM: Ruach: “You need to focus on your own personal understanding alone from all external influences from this physical world. Your comprehension of Elohiym’s Word. Do not let others deter you.”
3:45PM: *Nephesh Ani smiles*
3:46PM: Nephesh Ani: “I am understanding. We were graciously given the power to understand and I give all that credit to our Elohiym! Glory be to You! Glory be to Thee!”
3:49PM: Nephesh Ani: “Instead of acting so fast, we need to slow down and understand.”
4:02PM: Nephesh Ani to Myself: “Maybe you should take a break, from everything. Put your cellphone away, ignore the television, and just think about the Lord our Elohiym.”
4:03PM: Nephesh Ani: “We shall take a break after this video.”
4:16PM: Nephesh Ani: “It is as if the Lord our Elohiym is speaking to us here in this video, through this Bible Verse…. Here is the video:
https://youtu.be/1CX71aFcBPw?si=bl73NZuvYYEa2V9m
And here is the Holy Bible verse that we believe Elohiym spoke to us through just now, it is included in this video:
Psalm 25: 1-22.”
4:21PM: Nephesh Ani: “We understand things very slowly. Spiritual Biblical things to be exact.”
4:23PM: Nephesh Ani: “Ok. We have just finished the video we were watching, it was the one listed above linked, the one that had that beautiful Bible Verse. We are now going to take a break. We shall be back at around 5:00PM sharp to post this public report log.”
4:50PM: Nephesh Ani: “We are now going to post this public report log.”
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