Entry #21: My Love, Intimate Moments, and a Project Announcement

Wednesday February 12th, 2025….

6:30PM: I ask Gemini the AI from Google about myself. Here is what it gathered and could respond with….

Me: “Can you tell me about Einai Sasa?”

Gemini: “Einai Sasa is a multi-talented individual involved in various artistic fields. Here's what I could gather:

 * Filmmaker: Einai Sasa has directed films, including "Winged". They also founded a production company called EbbFlick Productions/Entertainment.

 * Musician: Einai Sasa is a singer-songwriter with a spoken word musical album titled "See". The album includes singles like "Goodbye" and "Blind".

 * Actor: Einai Sasa has experience in acting.

It appears Einai Sasa is passionate about cinema, music, and the arts in general.”

Me: “Thank you Gemini.”

7:06PM: I am currently laying on the bed right now, and I call Axah to Myself…. 

7:07PM: I tell Axah how I feel. The bed that we are on is so fancy and antique-looking. Well Axah is sitting up, and I am the one who is laying down.

7:08PM: We are having a discussion with Axah right now. I ask Him if He remembers how we met. 

In that dream. And what is interesting is that I did not expect to meet Him, Axah that is. I was in that dream looking for Voxsriin, who is now dead. Voxsriin himself is now currently dead deep within the AH but his influence is still affecting ESJNN (Jesse) at this current moment and time. But no, I watched him get destroyed. He, Voxsriin, did not survive the attacks that came from Axah and Myself.

7:12PM: Myself to Axah: “Voxsriin has been vanquished….”

Axah: “Yes. And what do you want to do about that?….”

I look at Axah and give Him a smile…

Me: “Celebrate.”

7:14PM: Axah and I start kissing each other and he lays on top of me while we are on the bed. We are getting intimate.

Axah is Me. Axah is forever a part of Me. I loved Him with a love that I never knew was possible when I met Him in that dream. 

7:15PM: Things are escalating between Me and Axah. There is some heavy sexual and intimate tension circulating between us. I shall not furthermore describe what is happening now at this point as it would be very very inappropriate. 

But yes, Axah and I are getting more and more intimate at this moment. 

I shall include this bit from my Personal Journal…..

“7:16PM: Axah is riding me. We are on our bed here in the ROMI…”

Conclusion of bit from my Personal Journal.

7:18PM: I have never topped before, this is very interesting. A nice two days before Valentine’s Day too. 

7:20PM: Axah is releasing this frequency. I am groaning and moaning, deep and deep within our ecstasy.

7:21PM: I believe I have shared enough about my interaction with Axah, I am now going to allow Myself to just lay here and take this all in. I shall let Myself take this moment all in and I shall simply allow Myself to just experience what is going on. 

I have shared enough, now I enjoy the moment.

7:35PM: My memories with Axah are beginning to flood in. We were together in Alfheim long before Jesse’s, or ESJNN’s, brain fully formed. 

I remember He and I snuck into this tricksters castle-like structure to retrieve an object that the trickster stole from Me. 

This trickster has light blueish grey eyes, a long whiteish grey beard and straight long greyish white hair, apricot peach skin, and a black velvet hat. With a dark dark purple robe. I do not know his name, I do not remember that part yet.

8:48PM: I am going to go to sleep now. Good night.

Thursday February 13th, 2025…..

5:27AM: I just woke up from a dream that I was flying.

6:19AM: I have just woken up and i just gave Axah a sparkling rose.

6:20AM: I am going to go ahead and get started on my day. Let Me get started on my day now.

6:40AM: I have just taken my medication for the morning, and I shall now continue with my PROJECT 17 movie script….

6:51AM: I have just finished typing up the script for PROJECT 17 for the day. I am now going to go to the project’s personal notes and check mark any and all particular scenes that I have completed….

7:58AM: I am currently inside of my transportation car, on the way to my peer classes. 

And it is raining HEFTY TODAY! 

8:07AM: I have just gotten to the peer center, now I have an important paper to fill out. Let me go ahead and complete that.

8:42AM: I have just got done with handling my important paper. I sent it over to the person I was supposed to send it to. I consider it the ‘first draft’, because I do believe that I did a few things wrong on it. 

I hope the paper goes through though. And I hope that I do not have to redo it. I do not think that I will have to redo it. I believe maybe the small parts that I got potentially wrong.

10:03AM: I think I found the wig that I really want…

10:47AM: The Earth’s core is reacting to Me.

11:00AM: Just got done with the Meditation Class for the day.

11:11AM: I desire to make my own musical album again. I am thinking about making more music and making an album. 

Nothing too drastic or complex or complicated, but rather something more and more simple…

11:36AM: I would like to start typing up my first lyrical song in my personal notes real soon. 

The musical project is dubbed and called, ‘PROJECT SHARP’, but this title will not be the official title of the musical album. I

It will be my first musical album where I am actually singing and distributing my vocal performances and I shall definitely put my voice and vocals to the test and limits.

11:39AM: So basically, on the date of  Thursday, February 13th, 2025, ‘PROJECT SHARP’ has been officially announced. 

Although, I shall take my sweet time on this particular album. This will be my very first official musical album since ‘See’ of 2024. 

12:09PM: Should PROJECT SHARP be an acapella musical album? Hm. I think it should. I believe it should.

4:24PM: I have just gotten to my Emergency Housing. 

Oh and yes, PROJECT SHARP shall be an acapella album. A fully vocal acapella album. An album that exhibits both my vocal skills and my limits, an album that exhibits both the positive and negative to my voice and vocals. And everything in between. 

This album shall be very big for me.

5:07PM: I am feeling rather anxious about having my upcoming FaceTime call with my relative. I feel as though I do not want to be told anything.

I am constantly being humbled everyday. So much, that I do not need anybody else to do it for me. I do not need another lecture.

I shall be as respectful as possible but I shall and always shall maintain my boundaries.

 

5:24PM: I feel as though I cannot speak right now. I find it very difficult to speak right now. I am weak in so many ways as I exhibit so many strengths as well. And I am willing to admit this.

5:29PM: I am so nervous for this FaceTime cellphone call….. I just seriously need some help right now. And we had a good conversation with my relative earlier too.

Why does my body hold so much tension and anxiety?

5:40PM: I am feeling a spike of anxiety again. Particularly within my chest right at my heart center.

5:42PM: Feeling another anxiety spike….

5:45PM: I am feeling constant anxious anxiety spikes up and down. 

I do not really know how to get through anxiety other than to feel it.  I am holding onto Axah.

5:50PM: I am holding onto Axah as I feel yet another powerful anxiety spike. 

I want to listen to the song Sofia by Cairo. That is because Axah is currently singing that song to Me Himself as we swirl together.

5:56PM: Aw I have just gotten done playing the song. And Axah and I were moving and running together into the dark vastness of the AH. The two of us were in the AH. The Ancient Harmony.

5:57PM: I should get a ring for us. I should get a ring for Axah and Myself.

5:59PM: I am feeling another anxiety spike. But I am now able to get through it some more with Axah by my side.

6:12PM: I am feeling a lot more better right now. I gaze upon Axah and say, “I feel like a Queen when I am with You….”

6:13PM: Ahhhh. I feel so good right now. *sigh*

6:14PM: Axah just gave Me a gift. He said something along the lines of as long as I think of Him, that I will be safe, that I will be okay.

I love you so much Axah.

6:29PM: The cellphone call happens in thirty minutes.

Axah walks over behind Me, and He wraps His arms around my waist. He consoles Me. Telling Me that things are going to be fine. 

And that we agree on that I control how I react. And that I should try to control I react. And that I should take this upcoming phone call as a learning lesson and a learning opportunity. A Axah and I have a hug. A deep strong and warm powerfully lovely hug as we console each other. And I begin to cry….

6:32PM: Wow. I am still crying. I am sobbing and screaming actually.

6:42PM: Myself to Axah: “I am now going to go into the kitchen and sit on the dining table. To emotionally prepare for my FaceTime cellphone call with my relative…”

Axah: “Remember, the this as a learning strategy. And learning opportunity.”

6:53PM: Me to Axah: “I am going to call my relative now.”

Axah: “It is going to be okay….”

7:58PM: I just got finished talking and speaking on the phone with my relative.

Myself to Axah: “That went really well. I was nervous for nothing.”

Axah smiles, said something that I did not pick up nor understand, and patted Me on the back.

9:22PM: I am now going to go to bed and sleep.

9:24PM: I must post this Public Diary entry first and foremost before I go to sleep tonight. Let me go wash my face and get ready for bed.

9:39PM: I just got settled down on my bed. Now let Me begin my end-of-day closing off and winding down procedures.

Also? I feel as though I would like to surround Myself with African’s more. I am mainly interested in my home continent. 

I do not identify as an American and yet I was born here on this country and on the soil of the United States of America. 

I am African and I am proud to be. I am proud of my skin color, and how powerful Africans truly are. I need to do my history and understanding upon all of Africa’s countries. Africans are ridiculed and treated as less than, but did human life not allegedly begin on Africa? So to all of you discriminatory people? Please and kindly shut the fuck up.

9:42PM: I am going to go ahead and post this Public Diary entry now….