Entry #13: Me, Myself, I and Ancient Wisdom
February 3rd, 2025…..
9:50AM: I do not think I am going to register with my peer support team today. *sigh*
9:52AM: I just spent my remaining money on some delicious Bean and Cheese burritos. I was successfully able to purchase what I had needed from Amazon. But I now want something to eat…
9:56AM: I do not think I would recommend Taco Bell if you are trying to stay cheap. Miguel’s Jr is nice. As well as Odalberto’s Mexican Food. I suppose I will be able to use my EBT card over at Taco Bell, but not when I am trying to save my money.
10:30AM: I have just finished my burritos and I am now sitting on the couch in the living room. I do hope that I can go to the Peer Support classes today. But if I do not go today, I will be able to go tomorrow for sure.
10:32AM: An interesting read. Follow the link below….
https://www.sciencealert.com/quantum-experiment-reveals-light-exists-in-dozens-of-dimensions
10:34AM: I found the article in the link above to be very confusing. Hm…
10:57AM: I play the song Jumpman, by Drake.
11:00AM: Oh I just remembered that I had this dream where I was moonwalking….
11:02AM: I play the song Bad and Boujee by Migos right now…
11:05AM: I can smell something burning again. Oh dear…
11:24AM: I just want to love and be loved.
Vivum: “Then incorporate that within yourself. Incorporate self-love. Learn to love yourself.”
11:33AM: I am listening to the gospel song, Evidence, by Naomi Raine right now…
11:41AM: I believe I shall change my name to Ivum. Pronounced (Eeeee-voooom).
11:48AM: I have changed the name for ‘Winged’ to ‘Winged 1’. This is to prepare for the upcoming film sequels to the Winged movie franchise.
12:44PM: I am going to take notes on the Winged 3 movie…
12:45PM: A group of guys who work for the Emergency Housing company just got here and they want us all in the living room. For fucking what?
12:47PM: Dude I am waiting to get this meeting started so I can work on my movie notes? Come on.
12:49PM: A stupid meeting…
1:05PM: I am in the middle of the meeting and there is this important video playing. But too bad I cannot hear it because of these immature idiots screaming and making terrible jokes. Like shut up.
1:10PM: Meeting is over. But I did not really get much out of it because the audience was too damn loud. *Sigh* Anyways, onto my movie notes….
1:24PM: I typed enough notes for now on my movie notes. But I am not nearly done. It is very clear to me that Winged 3 will be a very long film. It should definitely reach its goal requirement for 310 pages.
1:55PM: I am feeling a mixture of negativity and anxiety. I feel as though I am all over the place. I do not know what to do. I do realize that happiness is a choice. But that also toxic positivity is a very real thing. Yes, choose to be happy. But you will never truly get over your negativity, unless you realize that you need to fully EXPERIENCE your emotions and negativity in order for them to subside. I hope that I make sense because it is very hard for me to be coherent right now.
2:01PM: I feel as though I do not know where I am. I feel like I cannot type until I let this disorientating negative feeling subside.
2:09PM: Somebody stole my remaining bottles of water and decided to so graciously put their stupid fucking food on my refrigerator spot. I am going to let the house manager know because these fucking idiots will not get away with messing around with my things. Oh and people barge in on me while I am showering. Which is very fucking rude.
2:23PM: I just told the house manager. Let us hope that he actually takes my issues seriously.
2:24PM: I remember in my elementary school, we had these parent and teacher conferences. I really hated these…
2:35PM: Just spoke to the house manager. And he provided some advice. But I really put emphasis in taking about respecting other clients for tomorrow’s meeting. Since we have a meeting tomorrow. I am tired of this. I feel so disorientated and incoherent right now. I am going to take some time off my cell phone. I do not even think that I am going to my Peer Support class today. I hope that I do go though.
3:55PM: Me: “It is a gift to be an African. I love my heritage. And I absolutely adore the continent.”
3:56PM: I was seeing lights as I was in the middle of taking a deep breath.
4:30PM: Google’s AI Overview states…
“Proper singing posture involves standing with feet shoulder-width apart, knees slightly bent, a straight spine, head held high, shoulders relaxed back, chest open, and pelvis neutrally positioned, ensuring a balanced distribution of weight across your body while avoiding tension in the neck and shoulders; essentially, a confident, aligned stance like a soldier standing at attention.
Key points of proper singing posture:
- Feet placement: Slightly apart, parallel to each other, with weight evenly distributed.
- Knees: Slightly bent, ready to move if needed.
- Spine: Straight and aligned, not hunched forward or overly arched.
- Shoulders: Relaxed and back, not hunched up.
- Chest: Open and lifted, not collapsed.
- Head: Held high, looking straight ahead, avoiding tilting the chin up or down.
- Pelvis: Neutral position, not tilted too far forward or back.
Why is good singing posture important?
- Breath control: Proper posture allows for optimal diaphragm usage, which is crucial for controlled breathing while singing.
- Vocal resonance: An open chest and relaxed body can enhance sound projection and quality.
- Tension reduction: Avoiding muscle tension in the neck and shoulders improves vocal flexibility and prevents strain…”
4:36PM: A good read. Follow the link below….
https://www.gcu.edu/blog/performing-arts-digital-arts/how-improve-singing-voice
5:16PM: I suppose I have three names. Me, Myself, I. All these titles and names are now null and void to me. I shall only refer to myself as what I actually am. Myself.
5:23PM: Uniquity is my nickname.
Ancient Wisdom….
5:50PM: I believe I actually come from the AH (Known as Ancient Harmony). So basically, you have the Absolute Corporalis (Imaginary World), New Corporalis (Spirit World), Corporalis (Physical World). All these three worlds are within the boundaries of the Ancient Harmony, the AH & the All. I do not know where the All comes from. I believe the All is what we currently are in today.
5:52PM: Ancient Harmony is a lot more deeper than the All. The All is simply an effect of the AH. I used to see the connection between Allah and All & AH. But it is actually AHAll. (Pronounced Ahhh-hhhooolllll). The Ahall. I believe this is the name of our current existence.
5:54PM: The cycles of birth to death are governed by the Ahall. When something dies it is of the AH. When something births it is of the All.
5:55PM: The All is everything we currently experience in terms of tangibility. The AH is the most primal, eternal, ancient harmonious state we all be in before we are created, and when we die as well as cease to exist.
5:57PM: This is ancient wisdom that I am sharing with you. This is some serious advanced knowledge. Oh how I just wish that our modern science were able to prove it. But I know it is real. Because I have seen and experienced the proof.
5:58PM: The AH is eternal and everlasting, the All is what dies. The typical lifespan for the All is only but for a few seconds. While the AH has always been, currently sustains the All, and will always be here after the All ceases to exist.
5:59PM: We are currently in the cycle of the All. However, the AH is where we are all headed in this universe. Existence itself as we know it has only two cycles, AH and All.
6:00PM: The AH is far more powerful than the All, if I have not shared that already.
6:02PM: So our existence is called the Ahall. And when I mention existence, I do not just mean our universe. I mean the Imaginary World, the ‘Spirit’ World, the Physical World, and everything that has existed, exists, and will continue to exist. They are all within the two vital cycles of the Ahall.
6:13PM: So let me just describe existence itself….
AHALL
Consisting of ~
The Imaginary World/ Absolute Corporalis
The Spirit World/ The New Physical World/ New Corporalis
The Physical World/ Our Current Tangible World & Universe/ Lower Corporalis
6:15PM: The AH stands for Ancient Harmony and the ALL is very self-explanatory.
Working on Myself…..
6:42PM: Upon working on my facial structure, I felt as though I was transported to a new place. It was a space located within New Corporalis.
7:05PM: Incase you are all not aware, I have always had an overbite since my early childhood. But now as I have been working on my facial structure lately, my lower jaw is seemingly getting used to and balancing with my upper teeth. I cannot wait for how different I will look later on in my life.
7:39PM: Quick note to Myself: The general public are not very nice. They can be very cruel, negative, and heartless.. But I will still follow my dreams regardless of potential public scrutiny.
8:08PM: I have a personal sex diary. But because this is a public diary, I shall not include the contents of it here. I just started this personal diary today.
9:06PM: I like understanding and coming to terms with how little control I have when it comes to the complexities of life. It is okay to allow yourself to be simple, and small in many ways.
9:35PM: I did not end up going to my Peer Support class. But my Case Manager said that I will go in the morning. She was just busy with other clients. I also believe that I am going to go to bed right now…
9:39PM: I am back on my bed. And I am going to try to go to sleep at around 10:00PM. I have a busy week ahead of me.
February 4th, 2025…..
7:29AM: I just woke up and I had a rather depressing dream. I had a dream where I was torturing this black kitten. Which is weird because I love cats and a lot of animals in general. But apparently not in my dreams. In my dreams I can turn really evil for no apparent reason. What would this mean? Then I was arguing with my relative because they were apparently preventing me from taking a shower. I then had a rather very sexual dream after, but that is for my personal diary.
My first pet was a beautiful betta fish named Aqua. My second pet was this beautiful domestic longhair cat that I have loved and still loved named Tamu. I actually plan on dedicating my upcoming movie to Tamu. But yeah, I do not understand why I was torturing such a helpless form of life. But I am very dedicated to sharing my dreams and recording them down. No matter how good or bad they are.
7:33AM: I am a big animal and environment lover so this dream was very distressing. It was more like a nightmare honestly.
7:36AM: I may dedicate my third public full-length movie to Aqua the beautiful magenta-colored betta fish that I had within my childhood.
7:37AM: I am going to go ahead and get my day started. Tomorrow I have my first set of chores to do and I am quite nervous for them. They honestly seem like a lot. But I can and will get through this.
7:58AM: I just got ready for my day, and I am now sitting on the couch in the living room watching the news.
8:00AM: About to take my morning medications.
8:01AM: I have just taken my morning medication.
8:02AM: I am going to start typing my movie script for the day….
8:11AM: I have just finished typing my movie script for now…
8:19AM: People here on EH are idiots. I do not want to have small talk with you. And this grown male was trying to argue with me INSISTING that I love gymnastics. When I do not. I love dodgeball and volleyball when it comes to sports.
8:21AM: Why can people not just leave me alone? Fucking cunts. If you are not a professional nor my direct relative, then leave me the fuck alone. I am not looking for random friends anymore. I now have standards. High standards.
8:35AM: Okay I am definitely going to my Peer Support class today. They are on their way to pick me up right now. I will need to register with the peer support team. And I cannot wait.
8:39AM: I have highly sensitive teeth and ears. I do not brush my teeth everyday but I will try my best to brush more frequently. I have expressed wanting dentures in the past because I feel as though they are more easy to take care of than real teeth.
8:40AM: I know that it is bad and recognize that it could be for this reason that I have sensitive teeth now, but I am trying to get better. Hygiene has been rather difficult for me. I do wash my hands and wipe my buttocks when I defecate, but I do not shower everyday, nor do I brush my teeth everyday. However this is something that I am working on.
8:42AM: I hear of mental illnesses like depression can affect one’s motivation for personal hygiene, but I am not really sure if I have depression as I have never been officially diagnosed with the illness.
8:47AM: Oh it is so cold today. I am really tired of this winter weather. But I believe that I will also be complaining when it is extremely hot during the summertime. I think that my favorite seasons are spring and fall. But I only like winter because that is when I tend to release my public movies. I usually do so in the early days of March.
9:09AM: I tend to have some really bad intrusive thoughts. And what if my dream with that kitten is proof of this? Just some food for thought.
9:11AM: I think I may go over my high standards when it comes to which friends I allow into my life in better detail later on. I will just have to see.
9:16AM: Oh I forgot to mention that last night as I was trying to go to sleep, I saw this vision of this female-looking entity with short black hair, sharp feline-like orange eyes, and I believe grayish skin. I was briefly scared of her presence when I saw her. I also felt the presence of another entity right in front of my face last night. I could have documented it the moment it happened but I was really too tired and I was just trying to get some sleep.
She looked like she was an Imaginary Entity that lived within the New Corporalis World. The Imaginary World is now called Absolute Corporalis.
9:20AM: I may try to talk to her later. I can already feel a conversation happening between her and my Imaginary Self. My Absolute Self.
9:22AM: The leopard female’s name is Agatha Eritoci. My Imaginary Absolute Self is having a conversation right now. He is asking her where she comes from and more.
9:24AM: Eritoci comes from the jungles of Alfheim. Yes, Alfheim has jungles. She is a very ancient being who comes from Jesse’s inner world.
Me: “So is she a manifestation of Jesse?”
9:25AM: Myself: “They are related somehow, but I am not very sure why yet.”
9:26AM: The other being I saw before I saw Eritoci was this being who resembled a grey-colored Arcturian.
9:27AM: I used to think that Axah was the Absolute Imaginary Self of James, who was the alleged brother of the alleged Jesus Christ. Allegedly.
9:38AM: I believe it has been about an hour since I got the news about the Peer Support team on their way. I am so tired of waiting. Where is she?…
9:52AM: I have just received an update call from the Peer Support Specialist lady and she is now officially on her way towards to pick me up. She should be here in around 30 minutes or so…. I cannot wait. I am greatly looking forward to this.
10:24AM: The Peer Support Specialist just got here. I am about to sign out and head out now…
10:37AM: I just got to the Peer Resource Center…
11:09AM: I love this Peer Resource Center…
11:11AM: I have just added the Peer Support Specialist’s telephone number into the contacts of my cellphone…
11:15AM: I have just left the Peer Resource Center. I am now going to go to this clinic to hopefully get myself a personal therapist. But I am looking forward to my future. I feel so content with the progress that I am making.
11:42AM: I just got to the clinic. It has this really badass vibe to the place.
12:01PM: Just got registered for the clinic as well. I am in the middle of eating my snacks. It shall be my lunch.
12:15PM: Just finished with my time at the clinic. I will be back next week.
12:40PM: Hi so I just got back to the Emergency Housing. I am now going to call my personal Public Defender so that we may call all the hospitals that I have been to, and have access to their records…
1:03PM: I have just scheduled my transportation to the Peer Support Center for the entirety of this week and next week. I am so ready for this group!
1:05PM: I am in the mood to listen to some music right now. Let me get some on…
1:07PM: I play the song Good Form by Nicki Minaj.
1:11PM: I now play one of my favorite songs, Etherial Choir Ascends by Doug Maxwell.
1:12PM: It has just occurred to me that I will need to host auditions for Winged: The Glory of Tov. I need to do this to have a person sing as Lartrace for an important scene within the movie…
2:13PM: I am feeling very observant. Etherial Choir Ascends is still playing…
2:15PM: I gaze upon this alleged image of a photon in Facebook. And I notice how it appears to look like a circle near its center. Why are our foundational building blocks circle, spherical, and why do they rotate? Is there a deeper meaning to something being round and rotational? I suppose I may never know the answer.
2:18PM: After reading another post in Facebook, I begin to think. Scientists and researchers speculate that there are at least two trillion galaxies within our current universe. And you would like to tell me that we are the only form of life in the universe? No I do not believe so. Even if it is bacteria, viruses, pathogens, something. There has to be at least SOMETHING else living. Maybe there are sentient beings or maybe there are not. But I do not rule out the possibility of other life forms, even different types of plants of some sort…
2:21PM: Venus the planet will be at peak brightness in February 16th, 2025.
2:23PM: I was asking Myself why we have real names for our current solar system and only codes and numbers for other planets.
2:24PM: Me: “What about Europa?”
Myself: “Europa is a moon no? If not then yes I believe that would count for something. And that you are right.”
2:26PM: Holy shit I just came up with something. Is everything increasingly getting bigger. We start off small and then we go bigger in the boundaries and confounds of 360 degrees. Just as this Corporalis Universe did, and is doing. As it is still expanding. I shall test this theory once I get the chance sensory-wise.
2:32PM: I believe I am done listening to Etherial Choir Ascends for now. I shall let my headphones rest.
2:38PM: I am having very interesting things as to what will happen to our Universe here in Corporalis. Like apparently and allegedly if something moves faster in space then time slows down for it. But back when Corporalis was birthed and created, it was traveling and expanding at tremendous speeds right? But what if when this form of Corporalis dies and whatever ‘Universe’ is next becomes more sentient. As if it finally realizes itself. Just what if? It is a very interesting concept to think about.
2:48PM: I just saw a black shadowy apparition that looked like a statue of Baphomet with my eyes closed.
3:22PM: Hm. How to expand Myself?….
3:25PM: I have so many questions. Like how can I monitor my changes and the changes that I go through? How do I expand and contract properly? Every time that I take an inhale and an exhale. How do I do this?
3:27PM: Myself: “Focus on your inner universe. This would be the Imaginary World. This is what is also known as the Absolute Corporalis…”
3:30PM: So is anything really large in size? Think of the Universe itself, go beyond its boundaries and you will find something bigger, and that ‘bigger’ would currently be you. Right? I am going through a paradox.
3:32PM: I just stumbled on a new discovery. Realms do not expand, they go inward and they go toward the center singularity. Contrary to what scientists say, I do believe that there is a center of the universe here in Corporalis, where the alleged ’Big Bang’ started everything off.
3:34PM: And our existence of the Ahall is not even spherical or round, it is more so of an expansive plane. At least when it comes to the terms of tangibility. But there is still a lot about the Ahall that I do not know yet. There is still a lot waiting to be discovered.
3:40PM: So if I need to go beyond, I have to go smaller, I need to contract.
5:37PM: Aw my mother just sent me a lot of money. All the blessing to her and if you are reading this public diary mom just know that I love you and always will no matter what…
5:57PM: *Sigh* I love my family. And I am even more happy that it is growing with my nieces and nephews. I really do not care much about the in-laws. But I respect them because my direct relatives respect and care for them. I believe BLOOD IS THICKER THAN WATER. So just because I may have different viewpoints from my collective direct family, does not mean that I will love them any less. Yes we may not like each other sometimes. But we all LOVE each other. I do love my family. They are the only family that I shall ever have. And I will cherish every moment of it.
5:59PM: Remind me to get my cologne spray out of my backpack and put it into my day-bag…
6:06PM: The more I sit here and think deep in thought, the more I come to understand how little that I truly know. I am but a speck. A droplet in the vast ocean of our Ahall existence.
6:09PM: Oh my goodness! I am experiencing severe Deja Vu. I really do feel as though I have been here before, with every single thing that just happened being recognizable to me. Like I remember the same person walking down the stairs entering this kitchen. I remember the other person standing nearby with their drink. And most of all, I could recall getting freaked out by the Deja Vu itself, as it was happening. I have experienced Deja Vu in the past, but never this intensely. I should research more into what Deja Vu truly is. Both in an objective and subjective stance…
6:13PM: Be a badass, not a sadass…. Laugh out loud.
6:15PM: Here is what Google’s AI Overview can say about the Deja Vu phenomenon….
“AI Overview
Déjà vu is a feeling of familiarity with something new or unfamiliar, like a place or conversation. It's caused by a miscommunication between parts of the brain that process memory and familiarity.
Possible causes
- Misfiring neurons
- Inappropriate firing of neurons in the brain's temporal lobe, especially the hippocampus, can cause déjà vu. This misfiring can be caused by stress, lack of sleep, or certain medications.
- Memory system discrepancies
- Sensory information may bypass short-term memory and go directly to long-term memory, causing a feeling of familiarity with a new experience.
- Processing differences
- Differences in how sensory information is processed in the brain can cause a disruption in perception.
When to seek help
- You should see a doctor if you experience frequent déjà vu, or if it's accompanied by other symptoms like headache, confusion, or loss of awareness.
- You should seek immediate help if you experience a seizure that lasts longer than 5 minutes, or if you have trouble breathing or remain unconscious after a seizure….”
6:16PM: More about Deja Vu according to Google’s AI Overview….
“AI Overview
"Déjà vu" is a French phrase that means "already seen," and it describes the strange sensation of feeling like you've already experienced a situation that is currently happening, even though you know you haven't actually been there before; essentially, it's a feeling of familiarity with a new experience.
Key points about déjà vu:
- Translation: "Déjà vu" literally translates to "already seen" in French.
- Experience: It's the feeling that you've lived through a current moment before, even though you can't recall the details of that previous experience.
- Common occurrence: Most people experience déjà vu at some point in their lives….”
6:17PM: I have a theory in regard to Deja Vu. From a scientific standpoint. So if Deja Vu can truly be chalked up to a misfire in the brain, then would that mean the less brain activity we experience, the more we experience the connected feeling that Deja Vu provides? And if that is the case, will this feeling be present in death? And maybe this is why those with Near Death Experiences feel an interconnectedness with their experiences? Could this be evidence of the Ancient Harmony? Because I know the AH possesses this feeling when it is experienced. It is Ancient HARMONY after all.
6:21PM: I believe Afterlives are located and happen within the bounds of New Corporalis. But there are rare occasions where the experiencer may phase through to the Absolute Corporalis. The Absolute World. Also known as the Imaginary World…
6:23PM: My food just got here. Woopiiiieeee!!!
6:38PM: I am going to listen to the song, I Want, by MadeinTYO….
7:16PM: I have a class for the Peer Support Group and I also have my chores tomorrow. And I also have phone calls to probably make. But I love my life. And I honestly like the idea of being busy. It gives me a sense of purpose…
7:22PM: I just got a potential actress who will play Lartrace briefly for Winged 3…
7:59PM: Just got done putting some notes together for the current movie that is in development… I shall start adding notes on it later on.
8:17PM: I have just finished my movie notes for now I believe. Now just resting on my bed, listening to gospel music…
8:51PM: I am slowly beginning to unwind. And I shall post and share this new entry in February 5th, 2024… That would be tomorrow. If I make it through the night and do not die during my sleep of course.
8:58PM: I am unsure if you are able to open up this Facebook post, but it is by Hashem Al-Ghaili. And it is about how the body regenerates itself over time. I cannot wait. I have not been too kind to my body and I would love for it to have another chance at renewal.
8:59PM: I am getting really tired and I have a busy day tomorrow. I shall sleep after this song is finished playing.
9:09PM: I have just turned off the music for the night. And I am going to power everything off at around 9:30PM….
9:25PM: I have five minutes before I go lights out…
9:29PM: I am going to drink my water for the last time of the night and then log the beginning of my sleep. Then lights out.
9:30PM: Lights out! Good night.
February 5th, 2025…..
1:04AM: I just woke up from a bad dream. Where a lot of my closest friends were attacking me. And I heard Myself say that he does not want to have any friends anymore. He is so over it. There are kind people there yes. But that is not the point. Myself said that he does not want to have any friends anymore…. Anyway, I am up now. But I will be taking naps again.
1:10AM: I suppose I shall try to go back to sleep now…
6:10AM: I am awake and will now get my day started…
6:58AM: Today is the day when I get my chores started and I am quite nervous. Today is the day when I also post this journal entry. It has been a good three days.
6:59AM: Okay. I am going to work on the movie script for Winged 3 right now…
7:15AM: I have just finished typing up my script for Winged 3 for now…. I am now going to drink some water. I have a one gallon bottle of water.
7:32AM: I remember when I was working in the movie Levergie: Alexi, I added a faint pentagram on the set. Needless to say I got caught by my Christian family member and I remember it was a big issue. Laugh out loud.
7:33AM: My Lyft ride should be here in about an hour or so. I am sitting here on the couch within the living room waiting for them already. I may not report when I get to the Peer Resource Center and what I do there because I have a really busy day ahead of me… I will have to see how I feel by then. But yes.
7:35AM: I had this one friend, who is now an ex-friend, who was really really pathetic. It is like she wanted me to be her ‘yes-man’ and only listen to her. When she will not listen to me. I am glad she is out of my life now. And I do not need friends anymore. I have myself. People are so pathetic. You all got me fucked up. Majorly fucked up. Laugh my ass off.
7:51AM: I think I am starting to hate California. I would like to live in Georgia etc. I am tired of these Californians. And I feel very ashamed to be born on this state. I am so tired of these criminals coming into this country. I am also tired of these politicians as well. I take no sides.
7:55AM: I feel so honored to be an African. I always say that I am African and not black. I believe saying that your black further perpetuates the discriminatory influence that segregation brought upon Africans. I love Africa. Even though I have never been there. I do not really like the government, but the culture I do somewhat like.
8:00AM: Before I get attacked for my stance on illegal immigrants, let me put a disclaimer. I do NOT have anything against immigrants in general. What I do oppose are those who come to the United States of America illegally. My older relatives are immigrants, but they came here LEGALLY AND RESPECTFULLY. They did not sneak in or what not.
8:04AM: I also like the idea of the Gulf of America change. I love that. I do believe that California becoming its own country is a bit much however.
8:25AM: My driver should be here in around nine minutes. For safety purposes. The driver’s car is a white Toyota Corolla. I would reveal the driver’s name, but I respect their privacy.
8:29AM: Pick up in around four minutes. I may not give an update when the driver officially gets here.
8:30AM: Okay, I am going to sign out now…
8:32AM: Oh, it rained last night. Hm
8:47AM: I have just gotten to the place. And the driver I had probably had hearing issues as he did not listen to me when we stopped by the entrance. He kept driving past the entrance which really frustrated me. I gave him three stars. I am unsure if he has a disability. And if he does, then I excuse this situation. If he does not, if you are reading this J, please work on your hearing and listening to your clients. Thank you.
8:49AM: Anyways, time to get my day started…
10:44AM: I am so loving this place. I greatly enjoy it so far.
11:47AM: Remind me to type a list of all my boundaries here on this Public Diary.
11:56AM: I am going to try to add all the phone numbers to every resource that I need.
12:13PM: Keukenhof Gardens is a beautiful garden in the Netherlands that I have just learned about today…
1:06PM: I love this quote. It says, “Do not tell me the sky is the limit, when there are footprints on the moon”. I do not know who was the creator of that quote. But I do adore it.
1:20PM: So this male who is interested in me called me like three times, oh but when I message him he does not answer? I am so tired of feeling like this. Of being ignored. I am so close to cutting this person off too. I need to be listened to. I DESERVE TO BE LISTENED TO.
1:51PM: I did not start going by my maiden name, which is Njoki, until the year of 2025.
2:15PM: I got a lot accomplished today. But my day is not over yet. I have the two important phone calls to make with both my personal Case Manager and my Public Defender. The latter is for access to my medical records, and the first call is for an update cell phone call… I am proud of myself.
3:20PM: I loved today’s session. We were just currently talking about anger. And remind me to make a list of my deepest anger triggering memories and also remind me to make a list of all my boundaries…
3:56PM: Currently on my Lyft to the Emergency Housing now. But I still have some phone calls to make and chores to do after…
4:11PM: I just got to the Emergency Housing. I am in the restroom.
4:21PM: I begin to start my cellphone calls now….
4:30PM: I have some time to wind down before I get to start on my chores. Thankfully it is easy for this weekday. But I believe I will have to type and write all my boundaries as well as my anger traumas either sometime tomorrow or tonight. I would like to be able to sit down, get comfortable and fully think about my traumas and boundaries before writing and typing them down. I do not want to just half-ass anything…
4:33PM: I believe I shall post this diary entry now. As it kind of feels like a while since I have shared my last public diary entry.
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