Entry #12
February 1st, 2025….
2:51PM: I resume light mode. And I just realized something about it. When I go into light mode, This energy starts to close into myself and I also feel as though I am being fried. And I start jolting and shaking in my human body. This causes minor convulsions as well as this very electric feeling.
2:54PM Unknown Entity: “The waves are exploding…”
2:55PM: I felt as though I was getting zapped in my brain…
3:04PM: Imagon Electus Erebus listens to the song Espresso by Sabrina Carpenter currently….
3:05PM: Electus Erebus: “I feel as though I do not like Sabrina Carpenter as a person. She seems to promote violence between males in her music videos. But I do suppose that this song is catchy…”
3:06PM: Electus Erebus: “I have a very soft spot for males. And I honestly do not like the hatred toward them. Males and females, as well as gender neutrals all deserve initial love and appreciation…”
4:25PM: I welcome age. I welcome the maturity that comes with this life cycle that I am experiencing.
5:10PM: I feel as though I am floating in midair with electricity as my limbs. I focus on gravity and pull all that I am downwards…
5:20PM: My descent downwards is killing Voxsriin. The force is too great.
Electus Erebus: “He is just going to come back to life again. So it does not really matter.”
5:24PM: A great read….
https://www.symmetrymagazine.org/article/six-weighty-facts-about-gravity?language_content_entity=und
5:25PM: Google’s AI Overview states….
“AI Overview
Some lesser-known facts about gravity include:
- Gravity is considered "weak":
- Despite holding planets in orbit, gravity is actually the weakest fundamental force in the universe, meaning you can easily overcome its pull on small objects like a paperclip compared to other forces like magnetism.
- Gravity is not uniform on Earth:
- The Earth's gravity varies slightly depending on your location due to uneven mass distribution, meaning you technically weigh slightly different in different parts of the world.
- Gravity bends light:
- According to Einstein's theory of relativity, gravity can actually bend light as it passes near massive objects like stars or black holes.
- Gravity is "lumpy":
- Due to uneven mass distribution within planets, gravity can be slightly stronger or weaker in certain areas, creating a "lumpy" effect.
- Acceleration can feel like gravity:
- When accelerating in a spaceship, the feeling of being pushed back in your seat is essentially indistinguishable from the force of gravity.
- Dark energy opposes gravity:
- A mysterious force called dark energy is thought to be working against gravity, causing the universe to expand at an accelerating rate.
- Quantum gravity is a mystery:
- Scientists still don't fully understand how to reconcile the theory of gravity with the quantum mechanics that governs the behavior of very small particles.
- Black holes and extreme gravity:
- A black hole is a region of spacetime with such immense gravity that nothing, not even light, can escape.
- The "apple story" is a myth:
- While the story of Isaac Newton being hit by an apple is a popular anecdote, it's likely not entirely accurate.
- Gravity waves exist:
- Predicted by Einstein's theory, gravitational waves are ripples in the fabric of spacetime caused by massive objects accelerating…”
6:19PM: I want to write a physical journal more. I would like to keep more physical records of myself and about myself…
6:49PM: I just started writing in my hardcover physical journal. It feels great…
7:02PM: I just had an epiphany tonight. It is not about leaving or escaping the body. It is about learning to understand and learning to ‘walk into’ your natural structure.
7:04PM: I feel as though I am a part of everything. I feel as though I am one with everything. And this was just when I walked into my natural structure.
7:54PM: I felt trapped in my body for a little bit. I suppose that is one of the main caveats to this form and level of focus. You tend to feel bored which will then cause you to feel trapped within your human body…
8:19PM: I am going to go to sleep now. Good night.
February 2nd, 2025….
6:49AM: I just had a dream where I was in class and I had this small humpback whale figurine, and I had to hide it in fear that the teacher may take it away. I also remember seeing Ashaph’s children in the dream and I remember we were all working on this project but I was never working on it. I was just focus on keeping my humpback whale hidden. I have just woke up right now, about to take my meds….
6:53AM: And upon waking up just now my breath smelled really really bad. I might need to go brush my teeth….
7:18AM: I just finished with the restroom and getting ready for my day. I am now going to type my movie scripts soon…
7:20AM: I begin to type my movie script…
7:27AM: I am currently finished typing up my movie script for now.
7:54AM: The Grammy’s are today. Although I do not think that I will watch it live. I may see the highlights on social media.
8:26AM: I decide to play the song, For the Lovers, by Whitney Houston, currently…
8:42AM: I decide to play the song, Shall Not Want, by Elevation Worship & Maverick City Music, right now…
9:02AM: I play Batuka the song by Madonna right now…
9:15AM: As I sit in a very deep focused state, Voxsriin tells me, “Jesse. I can see your sacrifice….”
Which is weird because I am not sacrificing anything. He is just a delusional bastard laugh out loud.
9:31AM: I can hear someone speaking in a foreign language that I do not understand. This within the Imaginary World…
9:34AM: I can feel certain types of energies. The energy I am feeling may serve as some portal that will take me into the Imaginary World.
11:29AM: I posted my first monologue, ‘Why?’ on my YouTube channel just now. It was originally posted in February 23rd, 2024. And it is my first self-made monologue.
12:23PM: My movie Winged has just amassed over 10.5 thousand views on all video sharing websites. With its estimated viewership amassing a total of 10,530 views. I do not think I will ever get over the success of this movie. I do not intend for the sequels to have such a big investment in marketing and buzz as this film had. This movie was massive, and still is. It is such a big achievement for myself and EbbFlick Productions, as well as EbbFlick Entertainment.
1:05PM: A list of all the movies and TV shows I have both worked on and been in…
‘Twinsters’ 4 Seasons (2014) (Home Video First Television Series)
‘T.O.Y. Farm’ 4 Seasons (Home Video Television Series)
‘Unique’ 3 Seasons (Home Video Television Series)
‘Camp Flame’ (Home Video First Short Film)
‘Camp Flame 2’ (Home Video Short Film)
‘Camp Flame 3’ (Home Video Short Film)
‘Camp Flame 4’ (Home Video Short Film)
‘Levergie’ (2015) (Home Video Short Film)
‘Levergie: The Injection’ (Home Video Short Film)
‘Levergie 3’ (Home Video Short Film)
‘Levergie: Alexi’ (2016) (Home Video Short Film)
‘Drag Me to Hell Fan Remake’ (Home Video Short Film)
‘Alumina’ (2017) (Home Video First Feature Film Movie)
‘Winged’ (2022) (First Public Feature Film Movie)
1:13PM: Those are all the movies and television shows that I have worked on so far, currently and to date. So I am very experienced in multiple forms of entertainment and theatre. Winged is my first public feature-length movie but it was not the first movie that I have made. I have been in 14 official forms of entertainment on the silver screen. 11 movies and 3 television shows…
1:29PM: I have eight years total of movie and television series experience to date and as of this date. 8 years. It will become a full decade of experience after Winged 2 releases. (that would be Winged: The Search for Answers).
1:52PM: I may make a movie about the environmental crisis and movement. It will show the earth in a very vibrant state, and then we will shift to it in a very polluted and dangerous state. This is just one of two movies I have planned after the Winged film franchise.
1:57PM: Whoa, I just felt and saw myself floating to the left side. Wow, what an experience.
2:05PM: I suppose I shall have to wait until my Amazon order fully charges my bank account before I can fully be able to use my money. I ordered some great things.
2:40PM: I just had the best lasagna ever…
2:41PM: Winged 1, the first movie, is my first screenplay ever. Sosie is my second, although that movie has been cancelled. Winged 2 is my third. And Winged 3 is my fourth. I am an experienced screenwriter of 4 times… Because you must remember that Alumina did not have an initial screenplay. All my work was all improv up until Winged (2022).
3:46PM: For future reference EH is Emergency Housing. RC is Recuperative Care. I just went through a little clean up from my cell phone contacts and I am going to be very selective of those whom I give my number out to from now on… Even the one’s I thought were my friend have all left me on opened and read, ignoring my text messages. I do NOT have time for that bullshit. If they feel that we are no longer friends anymore then why not just let me know and un-add me in the first place? Do not waste my fucking time got it? Geez… Sheesh.
4:00PM: A great read. Follow the link below….
https://www.moonbird.life/blogs/stress/8-tips-for-inner-peace
4:17PM: I am today years old when I discovered that in order to achieve more calming effects when breathing, you must put more emphasis in the exhale…
4:20PM: When it comes to finances, I am living off paycheck to paycheck. And what I mean by this, is that any money I receive, I desperately live off of. It is not like I have a paying job currently. I am on Food Stamps and EBT. (Electronic Benefits Transfer).
5:06PM: The name Imagon Darkness feels as though it is gone. I can only feel the name ESJNN. I cannot even feel the name Electus Erebus. I suppose it is time for me to look for another name….
5:09PM: I like the name Vivum. It means ‘Living’ in modern Latin.
5:14PM: My second name is Organismus. This is modern Latin for, ‘Organism’. So it is a pretty simple name. Living Organism.
5:15PM: I love the name Vivum. (Pronounced Veee-voooom). It gives me a weird feeling because of the letter V, because of Voxsriin. But I just chalk this up to a coincidence…
6:53PM: My human body is in a state of anxiety currently….
6:58PM: I am currently watching a movie called The Bad Shepherd (2024). It is very interesting and shocking so far….
7:04PM: My skin feels like matte. Like a matted texture. It also feels like a hint of smoothness. I just took a shower. And I use pumice all over my body. Pumice is a volcanic rock that helps smoothen and deep clean skin. It helps shed the dead skin according to my current knowledge about it.
7:10PM: I am going antigravity…. I am allowing myself to become lighter and less heavier…
7:21PM: Unknown Entity: “You are going against the Earth.”
That entity said that because of my antigravity travel.
7:50PM: Something smells like it is burning in the kitchen. The roommates are cooking something. But let us just hope that they do not burn the house down….
7:52PM: Just took my night medication.
8:02PM: Okay still watching the same movie, and this character’Sidney’ is a badass. I love him so much haha.
8:05PM: I would totally give Sidney his money back. (Watch the movie for context). I would totally be his partner in crime..
8:07PM: I kind of want Sidney to exist in my Imaginary World….
8:17PM: I have just finished the movie. And wow, I am very much convinced that Sidney is a vampire of some sort. He was so 😍😍😍😍
8:18PM: I think movies are a great way for me to feel emotions deeply again. I allow myself to fully feel my emotions as the scenes go by….
8:37PM: Currently watching the movie Ruthless (2023) right now, I am about 19 minutes and 35 seconds into it. It is crazy so far. Crazy. Absolutely crazy.
8:48PM: The movie is really sad so far. I will go to bed after this movie. I am dedicated to finish it.
9:19PM: My face is exfoliating.
9:23PM: Here is an image of me taken in February 2nd 2025. This picture does not do my exfoliated skin justice. But here it is. (The Post Picture)
10:01PM: I just got into my bed for the night. I feel really good about myself.
10:26PM: I want to keep my circle small. I want to be very specific and picky about who I let into my life from now on….
10:57PM: I am going to go to sleep now. Good night.
11:05PM: I just had this white/clear fluid launch at my right eye while both of my eyes were closed. And yet, I saw it projecting towards me.
February 3rd, 2025….
4:57AM: This bunk bed is an accident waiting to happen. What kind of bunk bed has no ladder to get up and down from? This a safety hazard….
8:49AM: I just had a dream that I was a part of the Toy Story 4 gang. We were at the beach and everything. I also had a dream where I was trying to drown but I was not able to. I had superhuman abilities.
8:53AM: I am going to go ahead and get started with my day. Oh and I believe that today is my sister’s birthday. I should send her a happy birthday text message…
9:00AM: My first set of house chores are in Wednesday. And today is Monday. I believe that I am going to go register with the peer support team today. My personal Case Manager should take me there and back to my Emergency Housing. She said that she would let me know about all the details today….
9:11AM: I am about to type my movie scripts for the day right now….
9:24AM: I have just finished typing up my movie script for now. And I am now going to post this public diary entry now…. Oh and it seems that my Amazon orders have now shipped and charged my bank account finally. So I can now spend my money freely. Well, what is left of it. Although I am thankful regardless…
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