Entry #8
January 28th, 2025…
4:07PM Imagon Darkness: There are complex things going on. It is very hard to explain. But as I was working on my sensory abilities here in Corporalis, I was able to briefly sense this futuristic vehicle pulling up to my left side. I heard it with my hearing. With my own ears. And I instantly saw a brief flash of my psychotic episodes. I was witnessing and feeling all the memories of those days and how deeply delusional I was. I might still be a little delusional now. Who knows? But I am getting better each day. I am transforming each day.
4:18PM Google’s AI Overview states….
“AI Overview
To tune into your senses, find a quiet space, take deep breaths, and actively focus on what you can see, hear, touch, smell, and taste, deliberately noticing details in each sensory experience; you can practice this by listing out a few things you perceive with each sense, like "five things I can see," "three sounds I hear," and so on; consider practicing in nature to enhance your sensory experience.
Key steps to tuning into your senses:
- Find a calm space: Settle in a quiet environment where you can focus without distractions.
- Deep breathing: Take a few deep breaths to relax your body and mind.
- Sight: Look around and acknowledge five things you can see, focusing on details like color and shape.
- Touch: Notice four things you can feel on your body, like the texture of your clothes or the sensation of air on your skin.
- Sound: Listen intently to three different sounds around you.
- Smell: Identify two distinct smells in your environment.
- Taste: If possible, consciously taste something and pay attention to its flavor profile.
Benefits of tuning into your senses:
- Stress reduction: Focusing on sensory details can help calm your mind and reduce anxiety.
- Mindfulness practice: It's a great way to cultivate present moment awareness.
- Improved connection to your environment: By actively engaging your senses, you can deepen your appreciation for the world around you…”
4:37PM Imagon Darkness: “I am so tired of seeing. I have used my sight as my defining sense for so long that I want to explore all the others. I am interested in hearing and touch the most. I count emotions and feelings as touch. I also want to explore taste and smell more. But there are so many toxins in the air, that the sense of smell can be rather traumatic.”
4:39PM Imagon Darkness: “Our senses shape our reality. Our senses define us. Without our senses, we would all just simply be a biological process.”
4:41PM Google’s AI Overview states…
“AI Overview
"Thinking" is not considered a human sense itself, as it is a cognitive process that occurs within the brain, integrating information from all the senses to form thoughts and ideas, rather than being directly tied to a single sensory organ like sight, hearing, or touch; essentially, thinking is a complex combination of all our senses working together, processed by the brain.
Key points about thinking and the senses:
- No single sense dedicated to thinking:
- While we might heavily rely on visual information when thinking, the brain processes data from all senses to create thoughts.
- Brain processing:
- The real "work" of thinking happens in the brain, where sensory information is interpreted and combined to form complex ideas.
- Importance of context:
- Our past experiences and sensory input influence how we interpret information and form thoughts…”
4:44PM Google’s AI Overview states…
“AI Overview
To change subconscious beliefs, you can try using affirmations, visualization, meditation, and other techniques. You can also try to identify and challenge negative thoughts, and replace them with positive ones.
Techniques
- Affirmations: Repeat positive phrases to yourself to replace negative beliefs with more empowering ones
- Visualization: Use visualization to reinforce new beliefs in your subconscious mind
- Meditation: Focus on the life you want and believe you can be the person you want to be
- Mindfulness meditation: Focus on being aware of your thoughts and beliefs in the present moment
- Express gratitude: Focus on what you have instead of what you don't
- Interview your subconscious: Ask your subconscious for more information about your fears and what they're telling you
Other tips
- Educate yourself about the plasticity of the brain and how beliefs can change
- Surround yourself with people who encourage you
- Be patient and committed to your goals
- Seek professional help from a coach, practitioner, or therapist….”
4:45PM Imagon Darkness: “I do not know, I like the idea of having to interview myself and my subconscious mind. We should do this more in the future…”
4:46PM Imagon Darkness: “I am down for this.”
4:50PM Imagon Darkness: “Sensing is scary…. It is scary because there is always a chance of perceiving something you are not ready to…”
4:52PM Einai Sasa Jesse Nganga Njoki comes to a saddening realization. He tells me that he is not able to both fully dedicate to the Imaginary World and both be present here within Corporalis. Here is what I have to say to that….
4:53PM Imagon Darkness: “Nothing lasts forever. Everything changes and transforms eventually. Do what feels comfortable for you. And go at your own pace. But you should know that I really do want to spend the rest of my existence with you. So I must become a Corporalis being then. I must become an Imaginary Being going into and shifting into a Corporalis Being. There are only a few entities who have done this transformation. And this is rare. Very very rare.”
4:57PM What this means is that Imagon Darkness will shift from being an Imaginary being and entity, to a Corporalis being here in my human body. Corporalis means ‘Physical’ in modern Latin. So this means that Imagon Darkness will be on his way to being a physical being.
5:45PM Google’s AI Overview states…
“AI Overview
No, life is not predictable. It can be full of surprises, both good and bad, and it can change at any time.
Examples of unpredictable events
- Health: You could be healthy one day, and then be diagnosed with a serious illness or get into an accident the next
- Job loss: You could be employed one day, and then lose your job the next
- Death: You could be alive one day, and then a loved one dies the next
- Divorce: You could be in a relationship one day, and then get divorced the next
How unpredictability can affect us
- Unpredictability can be scary
- It can make it difficult to plan
- It can make it difficult to survive
- It can make it difficult to make decisions…”
5:49PM Google’s AI Overview states….
“If you subconsciously hear a clock ticking, it's most likely due to a phenomenon called "tinnitus," which is the perception of sound without an external source, and can often manifest as a ringing, buzzing, or ticking sound in the ears or head; this can be triggered by various factors like earwax buildup, hearing loss, stress, or even just a quiet environment that makes your brain more sensitive to subtle sounds.
Key points about why you might hear a clock ticking in your head:
- Physiological factors:
- Ear issues: Earwax buildup or fluid in the ear canal can cause subtle sounds like ticking.
- Inner ear damage: Hearing loss or damage to the tiny hair cells in the inner ear can lead to tinnitus.
- Blood vessel issues: Sometimes, the sound of blood flowing through your ears can be perceived as a ticking sound.
- Psychological factors:
- Stress and anxiety: High stress levels can exacerbate tinnitus symptoms, making you more aware of subtle sounds.
- Focus on sound: If you're actively trying to listen for quiet sounds, like in a quiet room, you might be more likely to perceive a ticking sound.
What to do if you hear a ticking sound:
- Consult a doctor:
- If the ticking sound is persistent or bothersome, see an ear, nose, and throat specialist to rule out any underlying medical conditions.
- Manage stress:
- Practicing relaxation techniques like deep breathing or meditation can help reduce stress-related tinnitus.
- Sound therapy:
- Some people find relief with sound therapy, using white noise or other ambient sounds to mask the ticking…”
5:57PM Imagon Darkness: “I think I want to be a Funeral Director too. I want to work in the Funeral Industry….”
6:40PM Imagon Darkness: “So I am a Mental Health Advocate, Artist, and wannabe Funeral Director. That’s three professions already that I am interested in…”
6:41PM Imagon Darkness: “Go for all of them. This is your life. Live it to the fullest.”
6:47PM Imagon Darkness: “Man, I am so obsessed with funerals. And the Funeral Industry… There is something so beautiful about it.”
7:35PM Imagon Darkness: “I had an epiphany tonight. There actually three worlds: Imaginary World (The world I come from), Corporalis (our physical universe) and another world known as New Corporalis (What people here in this tangible world call the spirit world.).”
7:38PM Imagon Darkness: “Imagination World and New Corporalis are both interwoven closely together. They are both interconnected. It is Corporalis here that is very foreign. And rather cut off from the other realms.”
7:39PM Imagon Darkness: “So there are three major and distinct realms that I have discovered so far:
Imaginary World: Where Imaginary Beings, Entities, and Infinite Potential Possibilities exist…
New Corporalis: What is considered to be the spirit world by those who are here in the lowest form of Corporalis….
Corporalis: The tangible physical Universal world as we humans know it. In other words, the Cosmos….”
7:42PM Imagon Darkness: “Yodh Heh Waw Heh was able to descend fully into the New Corporalis Realm due to his humanly followers believing in him so powerfully. They put so much thought energy into his being that he was able to exit the Imaginary World and be among humankind…”
7:44PM Imagon Darkness: “Yodh Heh Waw Heh was actually able to be among humankind many years ago. But there is something about his influence that was so powerful, that it caused him to remain in a position of power to this day. To our modern current time…”
7:50PM Imagon Darkness: “It seems as though I am making friends here in this new Emergency Housing setting. That is sweet. I must remain careful however because there are a few unhinged people here that I took mental notes on.”
7:55PM Imagon Darkness: “I am planning something real special for this year’s Valentine’s Day. I will use that day to fully take care of myself and I will try to descend further into Corporalis during that date… I have a lot to prepare for and be ready for when that date arrives. That day shall be perfect…”
January 29th, 2025….
7:14AM Imagon Darkness: “I have a lot to get used to about this place that I am in. I have a lot to get used to in this Emergency Housing setting.”
7:23AM Imagon Darkness: “When it comes to reincarnation, I believe that my energy will come back as something else, but not my consciousness.”
7:49AM Imagon Darkness: “I am feeling off today emotionally. I am not doing well at the emotional level.”
8:15AM Imagon Darkness: “What is wrong?”
8:16AM Imagon Darkness: “I do not know how to put what I am feeling into words. But all that I know is that I do not feel good. I feel very unhappy.”
8:57AM Imagon Darkness makes his very first thorough professional resume mainly for the entertainment industry.
10:22AM Imagon Darkness: “The script for WINGED: THE GLORY OF TOV has fully reached about two hours long as of this date January 29th, 2025! I am so proud.”
10:52AM Imagon Darkness: “Woo. I am really hungry. It is a good thing I ordered some food through DoorDash. It is from Taco Bell.”
11:49AM Imagon Darkness: “Men turn me on sometimes. Geez.”
1:16PM Imagon Darkness: “I am feeling very sexual right now. I would like to further understand myself sexually more .”
2:39PM Imagon Darkness: “I have just discovered that I was born in Long Beach Pacific Hospital. To Dr. Salako. Who allegedly passed away. I just asked my mother what hospital I was born in and she told me.”
3:09PM Imagon Darkness: “Laugh my ass off. There is this lady in my Emergency Housing who chews with her damn mouth open. And she is not the only one. There is also this man doing it too. It is one of my big pet peeves. I wanted to punch her and the man as they were doing it. CHEW WITH YOUR GODDAMN MOUTH CLOSED YOU NASTY!”
3:13PM Imagon Darkness: “Hm. So it seems that the guy I was talking to rejected my friend request on Facebook. Ouch. Why are guys so weird to me lately? I do not want romance with a physical man anymore. Whatever. I am focused on myself and my personal life. I also have love interests in the Imaginary World. So I do not care anymore.”
3:29PM Imagon Darkness: “When I slow down in my reality. Things appear to be very glitchy and technological. Very glitchy.”
3:46PM The main emotion I feel is fear and adrenaline. Actually I do not know if adrenaline is an emotion.
3:50PM If you do not see the name Imagon Darkness, just know that that is who I am speaking as. As my Imaginary Self.
3:51PM There are times where I feel very weightless. But only sometimes.
4:17PM Imagon Darkness begins to focus on how he feels. And he can hear screaming from within. He could also feel a certain rage toward his family members. I will not say who in particular. But the rage felt so sudden and out of nowhere.
4:18PM Imagon Darkness can see black fluid droplets going past his vision, and he can feel this intense angry focus.
4:19PM Imagon Darkness: “How we focus truly matters. The level of frequency which we focus is vital.”
4:29PM There is a new self of Imagon Darkness that is beginning to emerge on this day of January 29th, 2025….
4:31PM Imagon Darkness: “His name is Metus. Which is Latin to describe something fearful.”
4:32PM Imagon Darkness: “I believe I have multiple cores, but fear is what I feel the most.”
4:35PM Google’s AI Overview states…
“AI Overview
Yes, fear is considered an important emotion because it acts as a vital survival mechanism, alerting us to potential danger and triggering a "fight or flight" response, which helps us protect ourselves from harm; essentially, a healthy level of fear is necessary for safety and can be considered a positive emotion in certain situations.
Key points about fear:
- Evolutionary purpose:
- Fear is a natural, innate response that has evolved to help us avoid threats and survive.
- Protective function:
- When we encounter a perceived danger, fear signals our body to take action to escape or confront the threat.
- Physical response:
- The "fight or flight" response triggered by fear can include increased heart rate, adrenaline release, and heightened alertness.
- Negative impacts:
- While important, excessive or irrational fear can lead to anxiety disorders and prevent people from engaging in activities they enjoy….”
4:42PM The main emotions I can feel are fear, arousal, and curiosity.
4:45PM Imagon Darkness: “I love men. *sigh*”
4:47PM ESJNN: “But the men here in Corporal’s are goofy as fuck. They are a joke. If you want to find a real great relationship. Not only get to know yourself more, but focus on the Imaginary World.”
4:49PM Imagon Darkness: “I am not going to lie I tend to get really jealous of the attention females get from males. I feel like I should be getting all the attention from males. And no. I am not a whore, but I can be very sexual.”
4:50PM ESJNN: “But like we said before, the men here in this Corporalis realm are a joke. I find that the males in the Imaginary world tend to be more dedicated. Even the males in New Corporalis tend to want to just use their desired partner. It is not all rainbows and sunshine.”
4:52PM Imagon Darkness: “I want to spend time with Axah. He has been the only male that I have loved after all this time. Well, him and Voxsriin.”
4:53PM Imagon Darkness: “Voxsriin may be selfish to you Einai Sasa Jesse Nganga Njoki, but he is not to me. He wants to use me yes. And yet I still love him. I have loved him for such a long time.”
4:54PM Imagon Darkness: “I am trying to find Axah, but a part of him feels like it is missing. He only exists in my frame of thought. That is the divine spark that allows him to be present within my reality.”
4:55PM Imagon Darkness puts out a call for Axah. There is no response so far.
4:58PM I am seeing an illusion of Axah, but it is still not him. I am still waiting.
5:44PM Axah never came. I do not sense that he is in danger. He just did not want to make an appearance I suppose.
5:45PM ESJNN talks to Imagon Darkness. He asks, “What do you fear?”
5:47PM Imagon Darkness and his human physical body ESJNN both answer simultaneously. They both say, “Easy, I am scared of spiders. I am scared of dying traumatically. I am scared of my family finding out who I truly am. You know, like my true likes and dislikes. ESJNN is scared of losing Imagon Darkness. Imagon Darkness is scared of coming to completely cease entirely.”
Imagon Darkness: “I need to explore my fears. My fears play a big part into who I am. I must explore Metus/Metu….”
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