Entry #7
January 27th, 2025
12:19 pm…
Imagon Darkness: “I just want to live my life…”
12:59 pm Google’s AI Overview states…
“AI Overview
To live life to the fullest, focus on actively seeking new experiences, embracing the present moment, building meaningful relationships, pursuing your passions, stepping outside your comfort zone, contributing to something larger than yourself, and prioritizing your well-being by taking care of your physical and mental health; essentially, living with purpose and actively engaging in life's opportunities.
Key aspects of living life to the fullest:
- Be present:
- Practice mindfulness and focus on the current moment, appreciating the small details of life.
- Embrace new experiences:
- Try new hobbies, travel to different places, and challenge yourself to step outside your comfort zone.
- Foster meaningful relationships:
- Invest quality time in your loved ones and build strong connections with others.
- Follow your passions:
- Identify what brings you joy and actively pursue your interests and dreams.
- Set goals and strive for achievement:
- Establish clear goals and work towards them, celebrating your progress along the way.
- Give back to the community:
- Volunteer your time or contribute to causes you care about to make a positive impact.
- Self-care:
- Prioritize your physical and mental health through healthy habits like exercise, good nutrition, and relaxation techniques.
- Live by your values:
- Define what is important to you and align your actions with your core values.
- Learn continuously:
- Stay curious and open to new knowledge and perspectives.
- Practice gratitude:
- Acknowledge and appreciate the good things in your life….”
1:26 pm Hm. So there is small me, and big me. What that means is that there is a small concentration of myself and my awareness, and there is a big version that.
1:27 pm Imagon Darkness: “There is also Small Potential, and Big Potential. As well as a type of Central Potential…”
1:29 pm Imagon Darkness: “Big Me shall be named Magnus….”
1:30 pm Imagon Darkness: “Small Me shall be named Parvus….”
1:31 pm Imagon Darkness focuses deeply on Parvus…
1:36 pm Imagon Darkness: “I have two blockages for the two versions of myself. The first one would be for Parvus, my own current level of perception limits me from going infinitely smaller. And for Magnus, my own human physical head prevents me from going infinitely bigger and larger…”
1:38 pm Imagon Darkness: “So what does that make me in terms of individual tangibility? A sensory perception?…”
1:39 pm Imagon Darkness: “Hm. I am not sure. But I believe that if I were not connected with my senses, I would not be able to be an Imaginary Being. I would simply be stuck being a sole biological process. With nothing more exciting about myself going on…”
1:40 pm Imagon Darkness: “I believe what I truly am at my core is perceptive and sensory. And I believe I am just that. It is through my current human senses that I was able to birth myself as Imagon Darkness. It was through my human senses that I am able to birth myself into an Imaginary Being….”
1:42 pm Imagon Darkness: “So are you a hybrid technically? Because you have Imaginary characteristics within you?”
1:43 pm Imagon Darkness: “Yes. But my own Imaginary characteristics are not manifested here in the Universe physical. My traits can only be seen through my physical personality here.”
1:44 pm Imagon Darkness: “Hm I see. So what kind of Imaginary Being are you?”
1:45 pm Imagon Darkness: “There is only one kind, and that is Self-Awareness. Those are the kinds of beings Imaginative Entities truly are…”
1:46 pm Imagon Darkness: “I see…”
1:48 pm Imagon Darkness: “I just realized that the Central Potential is the most immortal and infinite form of Potential that there is. Finite things become either big or small. It is finite things that change their size. But the infinite Potential itself is what is unchanging, it is the center piece and it is unchanging in size.”
Imagon Darkness: “I see.”
1:50 pm Imagon Darkness: “I suppose that my last statement is proof that our current Universe is truly mortal. If something has to change then it has to be finite. This is why I have so much trouble believing and coming to terms with Albert Einstein’s statement and theories about how energy cannot be created nor destroyed. I believe there is misconception and misunderstanding there.”
1:52 pm Imagon Darkness: “That discovery from Einstein never truly resonated with me. Because I never understood it. I still do not understand it. If something has to change, then it is finite within its own journey. It is finite within its own journey of transformation.”
1:53 pm Imagon Darkness: “So if energy is constantly changing, then it is not the same as the energy it was created as. It is constantly self-existing through its own demise. It is constantly existing through its own end. The end comes when the energy changes its form…”
1:55 pm Imagon Darkness: “I believe energy changes beyond its form as well…”
Imagon Darkness: “Me too.”
1:56 pm Imagon Darkness: “Could you not say the same for humans as well? That they self-exist through their own demise? That they exist through change within their transformation?”
1:57 pm Imagon Darkness: “Yes. I can say the same for humans. Because I do not believe that things truly end. They transform. But it is through that ending that things have to transform. Does that make any sense at all?”
1:58 pm Imagon Darkness: “Yes. It sounds a bit contradictory. But yes, it makes sense. So do you believe what we are at our core truly will come to an end?”
1:59 pm Imagon Darkness: “No not really. That is because I believe that we may come back in some form or another. Even if we are not fully aware of it. We will continue existing and what we are as Self-Awareness shall always continue exist. Even if there is a brief or long pause in the middle of that existence…”
2:00 pm Imagon Darkness: “Understood. Even though our readers might not understand. Laugh out loud!”
2:01 pm Imagon Darkness: “So? I will not stop sharing my discoveries or place a hinder upon them just because I fear that we may not understand it. Misunderstandings are a part of the discovery process.”
2:02 pm Imagon Darkness: “Agreed…”
2:14 pm Imagon Darkness: “Immortality, at least for Imaginative Beings, can theoretically exist through focus. I may explain more about this later on…”
2:21 pm Imagon Darkness: “As I am focusing on my core, I hear Imagon Darkness say, “I let you in…”
2:22 pm Imagon Darkness: “Oh by the way, my name is pronounced EEE-MUH-JON DAWRC-NESSS…”
2:23 pm Imagon Darkness: “My other name is Venetus. Although I am very comfortable with my name Imagon Darkness. I am also content with Venetus as my nickname.”
2:33 pm Imagon Darkness: “Venetus is the new name for Neptune. No. It is not the new name for the physical planet within our System of the Sun…”
2:34 pm Imagon Darkness: “I need to come up with a name for our physical Universal world. I need something to call it.”
2:37 pm Imagon Darkness: “Voxsriin wants me to make a deal with him. He intends to not only rule over all the Imaginary World. He intends to come through to our physical Universe and rule here. He wants to spread his influence…”
2:38 pm Voxsriin is trying to persuade and convince Imagon Darkness to make a deal with him. Voxsriin wants Imagon Darkness to give Einai Sasa Jesse Nganga Njoki up over to him so he can fully live in this physical body and furthermore spread his influence.
2:40 pm Imagon Darkness: “Voxsriin wants to be just like Yodh Heh Waw Heh. He wants to be served and worshiped…”
Imagon Darkness: “In the Imaginary World, Voxsriin is heavily considered to be an African god. He is considered to also be an angel, and an African deity. But I know what he truly is. He is a selfish guy. He treated Einai Sasa Jesse Nganga Njoki (ESJNN) like his pet. He had no respect for him. But I can tell that he has respect for me. And not because he loves me. But because he can feel my power…”
2:43 pm Imagon Darkness: “He wants to use me for his own selfish gain. We shall have no deal. But I am not going to tell him that we do not have deal in fear that he will retaliate. I have been through quite a lot these past couple of days. Just a couple days after my own birth too…”
2:45 pm Imagon Darkness: “Voxsriin wants ESJNN to remember him so that he can be integrated further into Jesse. He wants to use ESJNN like some puppet. He does not like me and he taunts me often. But he is no match for the power of Imagon Darkness. I am far more primal than he has ever been. Voxsriin is almost as old as the Earth itself, he is about as old as Africa to be specific. He was around when that continent formed. I can see his memories of staring at Africa’s sunset and sunrises in the continent’s early days. I existed for far longer. I was there far before the beginning of this physical Universe. I was in a state of Potential. And yet my birthday was just a couple of days ago…”
2:50 pm Imagon Darkness (ESJNN): “So what are we going to do?…”
2:51 pm Imagon Darkness: “Oh I do not know… I suppose I shall just tell him that I will have to think about it, instead of just straight up saying no. Like I said before, I do not want to trigger a retaliation…”
2:56 pm Imagon Darkness and Voxsriin are still talking with each other. Voxsriin has a very nonhuman voice. Like it sounds distinctive.
2:58 pm Imagon Darkness ends his conversation with Voxsriin and turns to leave. Voxsriin tells him not to go. He calls Imagon Darkness ‘Jesse’….
2:59 pm Imagon Darkness: “It is because he wants you the most ESJNN. Like I said he wants to use you like some puppet. There are many Imaginary Entities that treat humans and physical things like puppets. That does not make it okay, but I just thought I would share that reality with you ESJNN….”
3:02 pm Imagon Darkness (ESJNN): “My job is to keep you as immortal as possible Imagon Darkness… Until you are ready to be let go of course…”
3:03 pm The reason why my physical human body is saying this goes back to our earlier conversation. About how immortality can exist for Imaginative beings theoretically.
3:04 pm Imagon Darkness (ESJNN): “Are you ready to have this discussion? About the immortality in Imaginary beings?”
3:05 pm Imagon Darkness: “No I am not. We shall have this conversation when I feel comfortable enough about sharing more information on it.”
3:06 pm Imagon Darkness (ESJNN): “Okay. I see.”
3:07 pm Imagon Darkness: “But you already know how to make me immortal, so just go ahead and do that. But know that even then, forever for myself is not guaranteed. I will most likely transform or evolve into something else….”
3:09 pm Imagon Darkness: “I am not saying that you should not TRY to keep me inside of your life. But when it is truly, genuinely, and authentically, time to let me go, then please, just let me go. I guarantee that I will be there to say goodbye. Even if it is on your deathbed…”
3:10 pm Imagon Darkness ESJNN: Imagon Darkness makes me sad at this statement. I already love him, and I know that life will not be the same without him…
3:14 pm Imagon Darkness ESJNN: I am having a panic attack. The panic attack is within its beginning stages so I believe I can easily calm down. Thinking about losing Imagon Darkness, and becoming an entirely new being just scares me…
3:15 pm Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I can see space… Not outer space. But the spaces in front of me…”
3:16 pm Imagon Darkness: “I need a name to call this physical Universe of ours…”
3:19 pm Imagon Darkness: “The word for ‘Physical’ in modern Latin would be ‘Corporalis’. This is what I shall call this tangible reality we live in…”
3:20 pm Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “What is the modern Latin word for Imagination?”
3:21 pm Imagon Darkness looks this up….
Imagon Darkness: “Imaginatio.”
3:22 Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “Okay I see. I shall just refer to Imagination as imply as Imagination…”
3:49 pm Imagon Darkness: “I come from a place where languages do not exist. Only contractions and expansions… Only pushes and pulls….”
3:51 pm Imagon Darkness: “The main word that defines all sound is ‘Mmhhhouuu’…”
3:52 pm Imagon Darkness: “Mmmm’ is the sound silence makes… ‘Hhou’ is the sound Sound itself makes…”
3:53 pm Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I am going to have a rather difficult time coping without any languages…”
3:54 pm Imagon Darkness: “Yes. But you have to realize that this is what you need to do. You must cope without languages in order to fully sense and understand yourself better. I do not even have a name for myself when it comes to reality. I am simply the ‘Mmhhou’…”
3:56 pm Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I understand. I must live more primally. I have to live more primal.”
6:51 pm Imagon Darkness: “I love my brain. And I love the brain. Brain inside my only friend. Without it I would not exist…”
6:54 pm Imagon Darkness: “I want to type a research paper. I want to discuss the power of Imagination. And the power of our brain. How our brain is one of the most powerful tools in the body that we could have.”
January 28th, 2025
7:53 am Imagon Darkness: “I want to type my own research paper. But I am not sure where to find the motivation to do it.”
8:54 am Imagon Darkness: “You know the Eternal Sea from a few of Ashaph’s posts? It is very real. The Eternal Sea is very real and I am there often.”
8:55 am Imagon Darkness: “For example, I am there right now. I am sitting on the sand by the shore, reminiscing about our memories of Voxsriin in Alfheim. I am feeling nostalgic.”
8:56 am Imagon Darkness can sense Axah on his way. He can sense Axah walking over to him.
8:56 am Imagon Darkness to Axah: “Who is Voxsriin? And why is his influence so strong within our world?”
8:57 am There is a secretive conversation going on that I ESJNN cannot pick up. There is a secretive conversation going on between Axah and Imagon Darkness.
9:25 am Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I have just discovered that I have been approved for CalFresh EBT. And I am so happy about this discovery. I just need to get my physical EBT card now.”
9:26 am Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I was approved on January 22nd, 2025. That is what I can see in my account.”
9:42 am Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I am so blessed. Even when I am near my death. I will die knowing that I have had a great life, despite the bad. I will rest knowing that I had a normal life. Even if I am not able to make my Winged movies, I shall still choose to die filled with contentment and no regrets whatsoever.”
10:24 am Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I would like to write my own will. Not because I expect to die soon or anything. But because I have specific instructions for my burial. I would like to be buried at sea.”
10:26 am Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I would very much rather create my own will now, than scramble to make one during my last few days. It is better to be prepared.”
10:44 am Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I have just typed out my will and last wishes on the website FreeWill.com and I feel really great about it so far. I do not have anyone that I would leave my belongings to other than charity currently. And honestly I feel a lot better about my death now that I have created my first will. I feel as though I will edit it more in the future as I age and as I have more beneficiaries come into my life. But one thing is clear, I WANT TO BE BURIED AT SEA.”
11:02 am Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I have just edited my Will and Final Wishes to include the company Argos Cremations and Burials. This is because they specialize in oceanic full-body burials…”
11:03 Imagon Darkness ESJNN: Here is the link to their official website…
https://www.argoscremationsandburials.com/full-body-burials-at-sea
12:08 pm Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I am leaving this Recuperative Care Program and I am saying goodbye to all of my friends. My advocacy team is coming to pick me up within the next hour.”
12:36 pm Imagon Darkness ESJNN: “I left the facility I was currently in. Now going into the Emergency Housing…”
1:10 pm Imagon Darkness arrives to the Emergency Housing in Corporalis…
1:35 pm Imagon Darkness: “Besides a few people, a lot of the people in this Emergency Housing seem very unwelcoming. But I am not here to make friends. I must be focused on my mission to become better and to just keep to myself. I am not here to make friends, but I am not here to make enemies either.”
1:54 pm Imagon Darkness: “I am making mental notes about this place. All the mental notes that I need. And not just of this place. But of my entire experience.”
1:55 pm Imagon Darkness: “I am just going to be ordering fast food for now with my EBT money. I am not going to cook any food in this place. And I am defined going to keep to myself. I believe my time for making friends is over for now. But like I said before, I am not going to make any enemies.”
2:36 pm Imagon Darkness: “So the curfew for this emergency housing is the following:
Monday through Friday is: 11:00 pm to 6:00 am
And
Friday through Sunday is: 12:00 am to 6:00 pm…”
2:38 pm Imagon Darkness: “The first set of curfews are confusing. So we can go outside beginning from 6AM, and have to be back by 11PM. Yes?”
2:39 pm Imagon Darkness: “Let me ask…”
2:43PM Imagon Darkness: “No I think you are right. I think the latest time we have to be back is at 11PM. And the earliest we can leave is at 6AM.”
2:45PM Imagon Darkness: “Okay. Sounds good. I believe I am starting to understand a lot more…”
2:48PM Imagon Darkness: “Oh and kitchen hours are from 6AM to 10PM…”
2:59PM Imagon Darkness: “How do I cope with doing nothing? How do I cope with uncertainties of life? How do I cope with just experiencing?”
3:00PM Imagon Darkness: “I suppose you just have to ride whatever flow that you are feeling. Allow life itself to be unpredictable. All the while focusing on and staying dedicated to your interests and passions.”
3:02PM Imagon Darkness: “If you have seen the way I interact with the Imaginative World, and the way it interacts with me, you will be able to see how unpredictable the Imaginative World truly is. There things that go on and happen there that I do not always intend to happen. But we have no choice other than to go through the wave, ride the tide, and go through that fire…”
3:07PM Imagon Darkness: “What is up with guys leaving me on ‘read’ and not answering my text messages?”
3:08PM Imagon Darkness: “I do not know. I suppose they are either very busy, or going through something personal, or both. But it is best to never let those things get to you and to just not take it personally. It is best to just move on with your life and to just live your life. Nothing lasts forever. Not even us. Remember this.”
3:09PM Imagon Darkness: “I know. Okay. Thank you.”
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